Help!!!!!!!!!!! I think i'm fallling apart.... School tearing me apart. I'm not stressed.. or maybe i am. I dunno.. maybe it's cuz i've nv been stressed b4.. I still have my fair share of relax time.. and i use the com.. and i watch tv! But i feel empty yet full. I dunno wad i need.. but i know i'm saturated. With sch. everything... Maybe saturated is the wrong word to use. "Sick and tired" describes more accurately. I was reading other people's blogs and i saw sth which made me waste 45min or so of my sleeping time thinking about. It was about the passion that brings me to school everyday... I've lost the passion. I need to find it again.. or maybe recreate one cuz the passion i had in hsc can't fit into mjc! Passion, passion, passion.. The first thing i thought of was my gd friends... den Bio. I enjoyed bio lessons in hsc. Esp when ms tay's teaching bout animals. Animals appeal more to me den plants. Now in JC.. screw the bio syllabus. Everything's so chim.. u muz read so hard to udnerstand one point. And when the lecturers said O-level Bio is 10% of A-level Bio, it's true...

I've been taking MCs almost once a wk for a month now. I feel so bored and dead and lifeless in school. So i stayed at home. To do tutorials and revision exercises. Juz whn i thought i've done everything, i went back sch nxt day and rushed to photostat a piece of work which i totally forgot about. It's always like tt. Are all JC students like tt? I'm turning into a nerd soon... Life is zapping out of me. I need a break from school. Before the promos which is less den 6 wks away. But when can i afford the time?! There is no time. Even during the sep hols, i have to study and study and mug and mug to get my 1 A level and 2 AO level pass. This is shit..

Well, besides all these, i'm looking forward to Love Meridian Day. Why? I'm not sure myself too. I think it's cuz of the soiree and the retro/true blue theme. I wan to see friends in those. But at the back of my head there is a voice telling me tt i'm looking forward to Love Meridian Day cuz the nxt day i can go back HSC and reunite wif friends. and teachers who i might not have seen for 8mths..

Suddenly now i lost the mood to blog. Know why? Cuz i'm chatting wif gd friend!! yah!! haha!! I'm going crazy already. Juz like how easy it is to fall sick if the weather is very hot but it is raining.

And lastly, Lou___! Shit, i juz typed out her name. Should i delete it? Ya, i think i should.. But half of it only. I'm keeping the other half. but front half or back half? Hmm.. the back half sounds malay. So the front half den. Yup! finished blogging for today. Nxt wk's gonna be a long week. And i forsee myself not going to sch on Tues also. I dunno.. Juz wait and see..........