While walking from one home to the other juz now, I thought.. Am I very optimistic or juz immature? I can forget almost all of the unhappy stuff that happened to me after a good night’s sleep. The next day I would be the same old me.. Cheerful I guess.. Sometimes I may be unrealistic; but I’m an optimistic person. I do not think of the “not good” things that would happen but only the good things. But is this immature behavior? Not being pragmatic about the things going around u and only thinking about the good times…
I should be getting back my results tmr. I’ll den confirm my promotional status. Whether I go up, or stay here. And the only thought I have is I’ll promote. But tt will need a miracle. To be pragmatic, I know I wun go up. But if I stay here, I dunno if it’ll help in the end cuz maybe poly life is better for me. Or maybe MJC is setting the standard too high such tt I dun understand wad’s taught. I still have one day to not worry about this… one more day.. and I would have to think about these le, and be pragmatic and not so optimistic; unless a miracle happens. In case I leave, I’ll miss MJC and the ppl =’.
Some people set goals for themselves, some have dreams, some follow their parents’ wishes and expectations and some do wad their friends so. For me, I’m not any one of those. I have no personal targets and my parents dun do tt, and my friends.. I’m not those kind. So I have nothing to push myself forward to. Even during Os, I dun have a target.. and was juz aiming to do well for MJC. Maybe tt’s a target.. I dunno…………..