"We were the kings of the school..." Raj

How true.... we were the kings of hsc....

My class, 04S208, split up. Some in 204, some in 205. Going by the way he spoke to me, I think I'll be in 205.. I dunno yet.. Come Mon i'll know...

Today went school to study.. a little. Haha! But I still studied. After tt watched Kung Fu Hustle. It's cock and vv lame.. but funny. It's somethin light la.. Nth much.. And today's the 30/12/2004. 2 more days and it's 2005. Time flies huh...

I gt the news tt my class, 04S208 will be split up. Some will go to the current 202, 04, 05 or 07. If based by results, I think i'll be in 207. Which is isn't tt bad from my pt of view cuz ltos of 205 ppl are there. But 208 will still be split. That means we have to have new friends again.. get used to their classroom and lecture habits. Meet new teachers. Adapt to writing 04S20_ in the notes and tutorials. Haizzzzzz....... I juz hope tt I end up in 207. But not 202. =D. It'll be vv weird. VV weird...

This yr... I will forget half of it but for the other half.. I wun forget it for a long time. A yr of mixed feelings and experience..... Until den......................

I have a knack for diving. =D. I'm beginning to find fun in diving. Nop, it's not sea diving or diving into the pool. Is diving in soccer. Ya.. it's bad gamesmanship and sportsmanship. But diving is rather fun. Wah.. i feel tt i'm a bastard when playing soccer.. Haha! I push, kick legs, show a lot of aggression =D.. now dive. Haha! =D. Anyway, today i think i did one of my better and more convincing dives. U take away the 2 steps i made after contact was made on my right foot, it would be perfect. I tripped over my right leg, fell to the ground, rolled twice before getting up. Pretty convincing huh.. I scratched myself a little during the dive.. But it's juz small scratch.. No blood also. But in football pt of view, this is nth to be proud of....

Tmr I'm going studying! Haha! From the time I wake up until the 3 of us are sian. Maybe more.. I've been trying to catch up wif the lectures i missed cuz the school gave m an option to advance at the end of one mth of holiday. Which means i missed all the lects and did not spend the extra month to catch up wif my work. Wad a school... But i still dun feel any hatred to the school or its staffs.....

Lastly, my hair's the longest in my entire life =D. Which isn't vv long la.. I haven cut it in 10 wks... which is the longest.. But I'll be cutting it soon before school.. so.. it'll be slightly shorter i guess. <-- it's like duh!

I juz came back from Genting! For the 1st time in my life, I felt the urge to blog there... I had thigns to say these 3 days. Let's start.. haha!

I dun wan to say wad I did there in particular.. cuz it's stupid. I think it's nth much to blog about. Except if I went there wif friends!! Haha! Yup, I was and am thinking of going there wif my friends nxt yr after our As. It should be fun! Last yr we talked about going there, but nth came about.. I dun mind planning it nxt yr =D. MJ ppl and HSC ppl =D.

Ok... start wif food. While I was eating the buffet meals, I kept on thinking of vid. I imagined him saying "Why u all so fast finish? Eat somemore leh.. I still want to eat" Haha! I know he would say tt. Cuz he paid "so" much for it, so muz eat more. And me saying to skip lunch so tt dinner can eat more. =D.

While looking around, i came to some conclusions... China elderly are vv fit, and hk elderly are vv frail. Hk girls dress vv much better den girls from other places. (Nop, I'm not referrgint to hung or lily in particular =D). And girls wif short hair "her" style (for my mj ppl to know) / yanru's style during sec sch.. when it can't really be tied up yet (for others =D).. look gd. Nt tt I'm referring to these 2.. but....=D. Seriouslay, they dun look so mature and better. At least from my pt of view.. Girls wif tt hair, wif a certain facial expression will look cool too! THink about it =D.

I saw someone who look vv much like yining from the side view.. Except wif longer hair. Really vv look-a-like. Saw her twice, and the resemblance was confirmed. Once was in the haunted adventure thingy, another's while walking about..

And I've been thinking of her un-constantly.. It's not constantly.. but wif gaps.. so un-constantly.... It's wan to msg but dun wan to msg tt kind. But at least I called her tt night.. So.. Aiya.. I dunno wad I'm saying sia.... I think I'm too tired..

Lastly, I like children!!! Haha! Pretty weird for a guy to say tt huh.. =D

Juz came back from Leyi's hse. Had X'mas dinner and countdown there! Haha! The first time i counted down wif another group of ppl =D.

Me, Chin Poh, Ting Yi, Megan, Yilin, Justin, Alex, Josephine(Alex's girl.. , not 208 one), Huili and her sis, Megala and her sis. That's all I think... We met at 6 den went to Leyi's hse. Hung around watching tv until dinner. Dinner! Dinner was fantastic!!

Dinner. Turkey, ribs, potato salad, mash potato, brocolli wif mushroom, lagsana, pasta. It's damn nice. Esp the ribs! Her mum cooked all of these, except the turkey. It's vv good la. VV VV gd! haha! But she muz have spent quite a bit on everything.. the stuffs are not cheap.

And drinks. it was orange juice. Wif different amounts of whisky added to it. Actually, i dun find a diff to pure orange juice i guess. And it's the first time I've drunk alcohol. It's nth much la. Haha!

After dinner, they watched Lord of the Rings 2! Oh man...................... wad a show.. Haha! It's damn boring. LOTR muz haf an hynotic effect on me. Everytime i watch it, I feel like sleeping. Juz now also. But i still managed to get past the 2hrs plus w/o sleeping. Cuz everyone was talking.. tt kept me sort of occupied. The show ended like 1145. So we dilly dallied, gt our the sparking juices, some glasses and waited till 0000. We wanted to follow the teletext clock but couldn't find the tv remote. So after much frustration, we tuned in to a new channel on scv. and GASP! It was 0001. haha! So we merry-x'mased and yam-senged the juices. Quite loud though. haha!

Talked a bit den went back. We left at 0045. Waited for bus, no bus so took a cab. And reached home. That's for today =).

Ok.. No. I wun let myself me made used of so often in future ever again. Maybe once in a while. But to be made used of to make phone calls? NO. NOT unless i'm fine wif it. =D.

Today is the day! I callde her the first time. Haha! No, I din juz gt her no. I gt it almost a ry ago but it was mostly sms. So I called her today. Talked for 29s. But it's a gd start k!! And we juz ended the msn chat wif "tc!" from her!!!! =)=)=). Haha!!! Okok.. i've overreacting. But still, it's the first time! =)

Anyway, I'll be going to genting until Mon. So.. wun be able to blog until den. See ya................

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Dear Friend

Everybody says...i believe in you

if u trust me to be different

Moments we have shared

I'll never forget

Oh laughters and tears we have had

Take my breath n i'll be with u

I fly to the sky..... retrieve u so high

hold my hand and keep me warm

don't let me be alone

i dun wan to be apart with you.

Lyrics of a song of the show Tiramisu. Rather touching i thought... It's in the background. Lower ur bass and increase ur treble for beter sound quality. =)

Watched National Treasure today. It's a rather nice show. But some parts puzzled me cuz I dun understand their language. Only some.. a vv vv small percentage. =D. But time flew by so fast during the show. Rather interesting I would say. Nxt show I'm going to watch would be Kung Fu Hustle. I think it's going to be a vv nice show. Haha!Anyway, Dreams. Wad are dream? I watched a lot of shows and they all say sth like dreams are wad ur subconsious mind think. I dunno.. I can't be sure also. I've also read about this thing call Astral Travel. It's when ur soul leaves ur body and wander about the world and realms. So wad u see in these so-called dreams are actually pictures of ur astral travelling. The difference is that dreams wun last more den a day in ur memory which astral travels do. And astral travelling also allows u to some what see the future... in a way tt isI've experienced some situations whereby they are so familiar. I think I've "astral-travelled" into the future and experienced it b4.. tt's y. But anyway, this is no the pt here today. The point is... for the past one and a half weeks, I've been dreaming, as in literally dream.. i sleep, dream.. DREAM.., of Louiza for 4 times. It's amazing isn't it. I have no idea why that happened. I'm sure it's a dream.. though i dnu mind if I astral travelled to the future =D. Anyway, I can't rmb the past 3 times, the most recent is today. Well, last night that is. I'll try to recall as much as possible...
We were somewhere wif other ppl. I can't rmb hu. Something ended and we all decided to go home. I offered to send her home. I dunno by how, as in mrt bus or wad.. Den jump scene. We were running. Run run run den suddenly end up IN her hse. No doors or gates or wadsoever. I tink the gates are opened. The thing is her place seems like a pte estate, which in reality, is not. We faced her living room. The lights are on. Her parents and only her elder sis are awake. I looked at sth on the wall.. I think it's a photo of some sort. Her elder sis walked over, said sth about me being a bf and went upstairs to sleep. Note the upstairs.. After tt her parents were suddenly gone too. The TV was off. Some lights were offed. Only some table lamps remained. Now's the weird part.. she suggested washing our shoes. Even weirder, I THOUGHT (How could i have thought of anything at tt time??) if my shoes are wet, how do i go home in wet shoes? Ok nxt jump scene, she was in the toilet, and called me in to wash my shoe. I have absoulutely NO idea about washing shoes. Btw, the toilet floorplan looks like the ground floor toilet of my hse. Anyway, i started to wash my shoes. END. I woke up hearing pzzzzt. The vibration of my hp against the table beside my bed.
Weird dream huh... guess if i din pen this down i will forget it tmr. I've been thinking about it's meaning the whole day. I juz cant figure the shoes part esp. But amazingly, I felt vv happy during the dream. Haha! Some of u should know y i fell happy in reality, BUT in dreams?? Washing shoes? Oh man... haha..
Ok den.. tmr I have sch at 9. Some CCA shit. Sooooo, nite................

The last post was on the 18th. And today's the 22nd. Time flies... 2 months went by juz like tt. From the last day in school with the Whole of my s208 doing OP and touching PW for the one last time, until now.. a few days to X'Mas. I think at the end of the yr, i would write a summary of wad I've done this yr here.....
These few days.. did nth much xcept kicked ball. Sat soccer with some TJC ppl which boosted my morale and confidence on the ball, mon went shopping (I can really shop!! Haha! Juz ask yz on his views =D), and tues kicked ball again with some muds. Wed going to watch National treasure with TY and Amir..
Wad did i REALLY do this whole holiday???!?! Nth much to do wif studies though. I juz wan to free my mind of them now. I want to rest and to chiong all the way nxt yr. And while I'm typing this, I have my Ionic Eq notes infront of me pg 35. Haizzzz..
Anyway, I'm come up wif an analysis. Watching San play is a mind-opener. It opens up ur mind to a lot of things and u can really learn a lot a lot from his style. His is the only one among them cuz of his aggression. I think only i can match tt, ONLY for aggresssion. So I wan to sort of pirate his style =D. And I can;t play under pressure, my heart and brain do not co-ordinate and i end up entangled. I can think properly, my decision making slows down, composure drops. Everything sux!
Okok.. enough of soccer le. It's been a lot a lot of soccer lately. =D. Makes me sound like a soccer freak. A guy wearing round spects with his shirt tucked in and pants pulled up high on the waist carrying a cock soccer ball wearing track shoes. Haha! Tt's MY idea of a soccer nerd. Think deep into my thoughts =D.
Ok, sth different now. I'm lazy but determined. Contradict? Nah... I am vv lazy by nature, but I'm vv determined also! I dun want to laze around so I'm determined to do stuffs. I dun like to procrastinate! I hate it!!!! I can't stand it when ppl do tt. But if wif friends.. there's nth i can do xcept suggest sth. Like those days at Econ....
I'm short and hot-tempered, but I have vv strong self control. I flare up vv easily but no grudges most of the time. BUT... BUT i only flare up with friends i am comfortable wif. That is close and gd friends. Cuz only wif them I can den show my True self w/o restraits by being comfortable. However, wif not so close friends, I can't. Even if someone pisses me of so badly, I would control and ren.... haha! I wun flare up. With the xception of drivers who horn at me when I'm jay-walking when there're like 70m away going at 10m/s. I juz can't stand them. Irritaing and annoying. Sooooo, ball-kicking ppl... smile =). I treat u all as my gd friends tt's y.
However, recently someone said some things. And i gave some thought over it.... Let's juz say tt some of the gd friends i consider think i'm some kind of push over. Well, I'm definately not. I name a few names. Ray Wan Jiv Bit San Vid Raj Yz Jun Vin Loo, in a particular order i do not want to say. Btw, I'm vv vv vv gd to friends. I dun mind spending more money to make ppl happy. Really. Tt's y they think I'm easy to cheat. Nah.. Anyway, they're ranked. I'm vv disappointed at one side. But vv happy at the other side. One side they treat me the way i treat them, vv nice, respectful, joked w/o any harm. Other side treat me like a fool. Cheat me of simple money. Hides behind a fake mask. However!!! At the centre, dun dispair! If i put it in a graph, it would be an exponential graph, so smile =)! It's not tt I dunno they're treating me like a fool, making fun of me with some degree of hypocrisy or even challenging my intellect, I do. I know wad they're doing most of the time. I juz choose to act blur, be blur and juz let them have their fun for that period of time. This Was my idea b4. But now I'm trying to change. Cuz I'm so used to acting blur tt I need some time to bring in my Sec 1 sec 2 character in.. some of them only. After all, my confidence in life skills came from being so called 'lame'. I'm lame to ppl i'm close wif only btw. Raj said he knows a lot of Joels, but of all, I'm the most 'loser'. Ok.. loser. Yea, when i heard it, I laughed it off, make some stupid comments and trying to defend myself stupidly and making them laugh at my so-called stupidity. But no.. NO! I'm doing it in 2 minds. I'm trying to ease the tension, let out some air and at the same time think about wad he really means. This loser thing is true to a certain extent. Cuz I laugh things off and act blur. My friends should know me. Yup, but! Think carefully. Recall Sec 1 and 2. ME. Recall me at that time. Compare with now. Which is "more better" <-- =D, ? I think now. I dunno how my these lame shit came into me, but it did. There was this time when i told my friend I'm retaining. Jun din believe it. Until after like 3 wks. I was touched. But I din show anything. And when a few called me retainee, i felt sad. But I din show anything either. But I chose to advance. One thing is the time factor, other thing is friends factor. This is the first decision in my life tt i made based on my friends. Haizz.....

Do I need someone to talk to at times? I dunno. Maybe.... There was Ray. But he's in NS.

Wad is my character? Think first. Juz tink. Wad do u think they are? Here are some outstanding ones.. Cunning and stubborn. Does the word cunning bother u? I hope not. It's psychology now. Cunning... wad is being cunning? Hmmmm??? I am.

Wad are other characteristics of mine? Soft-hearted, gullible. I'm soft hearted to ppl hu approach me and also gullible. I dunno how to say NO to friends and ppl really in need. However, i am most able to reject sales ppl near MRT interchanges.

It's 2am now.. I muz sleep le. Otherwise I might not be able to cope wif the 1st wk at sch... Maybe I'll continue nxt time. juz.. maybe..

I wan to meet someone kind, helpful, considerate, rather talkative, somewhat a little blur, a little lame, empathetic and sweet..........................................................................................

I have nth to do now.. so i've decided to rate my soccer ability with the help of FM2005. From a scale of 1 -10. And i will be saying hu i think is rated 10 among my friends.

Ability:(mine);(friend's name)

Corners: 7??; We dun take corners often.. so.. dunno. jiv i guess..

Crossing: 7; Bit

Dribbling: 5.5; Bit/Jiv

First Touch: 5; Bit/Andy

Finishing: 2.5; Loo?

Heading: 4.5; Bit/San

Long Shots: Getting better =D. 6.5; Bit/San

Long Throws: 3; Wan

Marking: 7; Wan/San

Passing: 7.5; Andy

Penalty Taking: 6??; Loo??

Set Pieces: 2; Bit/JIv

Tackling: 7; Wan/San/Jiv

Technique: 6.5; Andy

Aggression: 10; San

Anticipation: 4; Bit/San

Bravery: 4; Wan(maybe stupidity)

Composure: 4; Bit

Creativity: 6; Bit/Andy

Decisions: 6; San/Bit

Determination: 9.5; San/Wan

Flair: 2; Jiv

Influence: It depends.. sometimes 8, sometimes 5; San

Off the ball: 6.5; Loo?? I dunno.. n really looked OFF the ball

Positioning: 6.5; Bit/San

Teamwork: 8; Andy??

Work Rate: 9; San/Wan/Jiv

Acceleration: 5; San

Agility: 6.5; Bit

Balance: 7; Loo?

Jumping: 3; Wan

Pace: 5;San

Stamina: 7; San

Strength:7; San

My physical sux. Technical so-so. Mental rather gd =D.

Ok den.. gd nite...

I was juz thinking..

I rmb quite a few yrs back, i cant rmb when.. But i had Chinese tuition. At the end of every lesson, she would tell me to write a diary in Chinese. Juz one entry between lessons would do. Of course at tt time i thought keeping a diary is stupid and useless. But i had to hand up sth. So i wrote down the date, weather and started my entry. All my entries were the lyrics of Chinese songs. I juz copied them down. At the beginning, she laughed at them, but still made an effort to loko thru them and guess wad song. =). And sometimes i eevn copied the words wrongly. Haha! When she left, she gave me a small hard cover note book. She said tt eventually, she hoped tt i would start to keep a diary. As i grow older, i would be able to look back and laugh and cry at my own entries............

Thinking back now, she makes a lot a lot of sense. A blog is somewhat like an E-diary. Sometimes i even look back my my own entries and smile, or get watered eyes. Maybe in a yr or so, when i look at them again, i would laugh at my childishness, attempted maturity or sensibility. =)...

Gan Qing Xian by Tension is a very very nice song!!! It's a pity i cant find the lyrics online. Sad yet happy, happy yet sad.. touching.. =)

I juz finished reading lyn's blog which i stumbled upon.. and it's like i sort of understand and feel what she's saying. Esp the October posts.. it's like.. erm.. i know wad's she feeling and feel a little of tt. I've never been in a position like her's but i dunno y i can feel this way... Anyway, after finishing it, some things began to open up..

Sometimes i feel that i dun think the same way as most guys do. Guys as in pural of guy. I think of more stupid stuffs and also more emotional stuffs. For the stupid stuffs part, i guess my friends would know it.. I can come up wif the silliest of ideas and words to really "piss" ppl off. Not tt others cant come up wif wad i think, but while others think rationally first, i think "silly" first. For the emotional part.. when certain things happen, guys and girls will have different views and thoughts on it. A simple discovery would be tt guys would give logical opinions first b4 everything else while the girls would doing everything else like conforting/consoling and saying the nicest and heart-warming stuffs b4 giving logical answers. For me, recently during tt day me jun and vin ate at seoul, when "tt" happened, the guys were like bo chup and dun care and like since it's over it's over, nth u can do, let them settle themself. Xcept the only girl, who was the totally opp; help them do sth, i'm not feeling gd like tt, there's sth we can do, empathy. At tt time, i was feeling the latter and not the former. Maybe i'm XXY. Who knows. But it can't be. Hmmmm.. my brain works in a duo-gender way... Tt's juz one eg. When things happen, i do all the Cs b4 the Ls.. most of the time..

X'mas is near!! in 2 wks time

But sch's starting!! in 3 wks time.

I need to go xmas shopping soon. haha! Yup, xmas shopping. I promised TY a gift and i muz get it. Maybe a gift for Louiza also. haha..

Gd nite.........

Before Thursday, warcraft 2: Tides of Darkness was the only warcraft game i've played. After Thursday, i've played WC3: Frozen Throne. But i still dunno how to play the 'real' game. Cuz i only played the hero one. U juz chiong and be hum zi. I used to think tt it's a time waster and money waster, but no. It's quite fun. Like today.. the brown bear and white bear =D. And yst, the koping ppl's ppl =D. At least there's a variation from CS now. Not everytime CS. Play also a bit sian. Haha..........

Tmr morn kicking ball. So far so gd................................

Look at the chatter box! Tingyi reminded me 'politely' tt she wished me too. Ok den.. so it's 9 greetings this yr. Add hers somewhere in the middle. I vaguely rmb cuz she was saying about me being cute =D. Haha! <--- i know tt will bring in some comments, but..... haha!

Anyway, wif tt out of the way, i have been staying at home these few days doing some math. =D. Guai huh.. haha! I could go out these 2 days.. but din i guess. Cuz on mon, raj called me a little last min. And on tues, raj called me at abuot 12 but my phone was on silent and din see his call till about 3plus.. So now, i've reactivated my divert. At least i would get a ring on my hse phone if i miss my hp.....

Today is my BIRTHDAY!! Haha!! This yr.. nth much. I ate, as in really ate, for 4 days in a row!! Tt's a lot k. Thurs Seoul. Fri Seoul. Sat and Sun wif family at restaurants eat. Eat a lot sia. Now, shut up vin!

I gt the most greetings this yr =D. And i'm proud of the number. Greetings from the usual ppl i dun say cuz it's not worth saying. Hehe =D. i gt about 8 greetings this yr. My most!!

First from lyn sometime after MN. Den while i was sleeping, chungchi msged me at 5plus AM, wonder wad he doing at tt time =D, den Louiza msged me sometime after 1 PM. Ray and Xena chipped in at 3plus though. Followed by Clare at 8 PM. And hung about 9. After tt i came back and went onto Friendster and saw Anthony's greeting! Most of these i din expect. But some i hoped din come in. Well, there's still 10min more.. Haha! I'm living in a world of self-denial and delusions =D.

Today is the 3rd of December. But it's the 4th of December technically. However, it can still be considered as 3rd of December by layman terms. Anyway, today is the 3rd of December.

Me Jun and Vin ate at TM Seoul Garden for 4 hrs and raj came at about the 3rd hour to eat for free.... Indians... =D

Yup, after 4 hrs of eating and eating and more eating, we went to meet san. He juz came back from Cambodia today. We thought he'll be coming back at 9plus cuz tt's the only flight from Phnom Penn. But he came from some part of Thailand. The irony.. haha!!

Fragged, talked cock at the Tampines talk cock hang out, met the girls, talked a bit, den wan and joce joined the 4 of us and went back to the same talk cock hangout to talk cock. It was fun talking cock =).

Juz reached home.. of course i bathed first la.. Yup.. so tt's for today....

Btw, i have the same birthday as Thaksin

All of a sudden, from out of nowhere came this surprising, mind-wrecking and sudden news. The school is giving me a chance to advance to J2. The down pt is, i cannot go back to j1 once i've gone up. And i have until tmr noon to decide. Wad short notice!! Haizzz, now muz think carefully to advance or repeat. I think i'll choose advance, but i have to work triply hard. maybe quadruply............................

Juz came back home from Seould Garden wif ty amir and cp. Spent 3 hrs there. And my kiasu-ism of taking a whole tray of prawns surprised and humoured them. Haha! But we went home early after tt, sad huh.. Go out juz to eat. Cp and amir wanted to go home though.. bu my and ty did not. But in the end all went home, unless i went on a date wif ty.. Haha..

Tmr's Seoul Garden again i think.. wif the usual ppl la.. Btw, my Birthday is on the 5th of this mth. FIFTH DECEMBER IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!