Hey.. it wasn't may fault the pa cocked up during the inter-hse competition. Cuz i was NOT the one doing the pa. I juz sit there shake leg and render support only!! The SLC ppl are the ones playing the cd. Come on, they are inexperienced! MMC wun mix up ur discs.. If we mixed up we will say it's our fault and not tt ur disc gt no track 4. Haizzz.. everyone is turning their heads on MMC now. But it's SLC.. not MMC!! I hope ppl can understand. Especially 202!! I purposely requested to play the disc for 202 cuz of... but to my horror, and yes, really to my horror, there was no track 4. Haizz... think the SLC ppl mixed ur disc up. I wanted ur performance to go smoothly but........... Sorry 04S202...

Dont fee like blogging today.. cuz of Love Meridian Day.. and sth happened to a friend..
But juz had to say this out. Saw her taking a photo wif kok yong today. Felt kinda jealous cuz they were like putting their hands round each other... Yea, i shouldn't feel jealous cuz it's nth much.. but it's like tt.. haizzz. Hmmmmm, i shld wrk on it!!

I've finally failed to take MC for a wk! It's Thurs and i will definitely go sch tmr so i have been in school everyday this week. It's such a gret achievement huh.. Haha!
Discussed about the Love Meridian day performance with my class today. Used PW period until like 730 before we left school. Spent like 2.5 hrs! But we finally solved things. I thought Alex should be the CG Rep today. He is able to bring everyone together for one common cause mroe effectively den me. Anyway, for the first time, everyone in class participated in the discussion!! Hurray!! Hope this is the start of a new era.. Haha..
Stayed back till very late on Tues doing WR. And Chinpoh and Huili told me that i cannot lead the class properly. They said that I most probably be able to lead other classes but not this class. Cuz there're too many people with a stronger say den me. There're people who's words carry more weight den me in the class. They said that in order for a CG Rep to be respected amond his peers, the CG has to choose him and the class agree. For the class now, all the reps are random. Maybe with the exception of me =D, where my ex-classmates voted for me. They make sense dun they. I sort of agree with them. During 1st 3mths Yeow made me CG Rep cuz i was the first to spoke when he asked for introductions. Well, maybe my guts made the light behind me shine brighter and attracted attention.
Saw her in GP lecture today. Think she saw me also. I was on the chair and she was like 3 occupied seats away and was sitting on the floor. I was thinking whether to stand up and let her sit, or at least offer to her. But i scared wait she paiseh cuz her friends around. And further more she doesn't know the people around me. So i thought and thought, den she went further away to have a better view of the movie.
Saw her on my way to PE yst. We walked past each other. Well, i kept my eyes on her hoping that she would turn and i can say hi. But she did not. Sth like act blur la. Like wad i used to do. Oh well.. the gd thing is after i gave her the present she showed no change in attitude. Is that a gd or bad sign???? Hmmm..
On Tuesday evening it rained heavily, and she sayed in school waiting for the rain to stop. I was doing my WR. And i could like "walking in the rain" with her. Haha.. but screw the rain which ended so fast and screw my PW WR which took a long long time.
And on Love Meridian day she's wearing retro! haha!! Really want to see her in retro!! And i want to see all my friends in retro also!! Can't wait for that day..

It's monday today!! But it's funny why i dun get the monday blues today.. maybe i've seen her for like 4 times today?? Haha!! It's like 2230 now. Sooooooo early! Can't believe that i am free now. I'm sure i missed sth.. Oh shit.. i still gt my chi compo to finish. But it's the last few lines only.. But sth's surely strange today. I am not tired at all! Not at ALL!! It's amazing. Maybe this wk i wun take MC. Cuz i have some cca committments on wed and fri. And some hsc committments tmr. So.... tt leaves thurs. But thurs is a long day for me. Would be missing out on a lot... Oh well, count the steps as i walk.

Today went to the canteen for like 15s after my rehearsal. I was so surprised to find so many ppl in the canteen doing their work.. Maybe mugging is a better word to use. I din expect to see so many ppl there. Usually it would be like 5 times smaller. Anyway, it's like 5 wks to the promos! I gt a strong feeling i'll retain..

Gt back bio today. Gt 19/50. AO pass. It's relatively average around. But i'm NOT happy. to get this kind of grades for bio tt is. Cuz my bio had always been my top sub in sch and in Os also. MSG of like 1.75?! Haha... not tt i'm bragging or wad but i feel tt my bio has really dropped..

I realised i'm more of a sad person den a happy person though i look happy and not sad outside. Why?! Cuz i've been blogging all unhappy stuff! Where are all the happy ones? The last one i can rmb is the one about my one touch cross. Hmmm... why do i have so much problems?

Yeah... i hope after nxt tues i'll have sth nice to post! Happiness brightens up one's day.. and the ppl around u also! Smile and the world smile with u! haha.. a bit spastic... but nvm! I'm smiling 70% of the time u see me! =) =)=)

Help!!!!!!!!!!! I think i'm fallling apart.... School tearing me apart. I'm not stressed.. or maybe i am. I dunno.. maybe it's cuz i've nv been stressed b4.. I still have my fair share of relax time.. and i use the com.. and i watch tv! But i feel empty yet full. I dunno wad i need.. but i know i'm saturated. With sch. everything... Maybe saturated is the wrong word to use. "Sick and tired" describes more accurately. I was reading other people's blogs and i saw sth which made me waste 45min or so of my sleeping time thinking about. It was about the passion that brings me to school everyday... I've lost the passion. I need to find it again.. or maybe recreate one cuz the passion i had in hsc can't fit into mjc! Passion, passion, passion.. The first thing i thought of was my gd friends... den Bio. I enjoyed bio lessons in hsc. Esp when ms tay's teaching bout animals. Animals appeal more to me den plants. Now in JC.. screw the bio syllabus. Everything's so chim.. u muz read so hard to udnerstand one point. And when the lecturers said O-level Bio is 10% of A-level Bio, it's true...

I've been taking MCs almost once a wk for a month now. I feel so bored and dead and lifeless in school. So i stayed at home. To do tutorials and revision exercises. Juz whn i thought i've done everything, i went back sch nxt day and rushed to photostat a piece of work which i totally forgot about. It's always like tt. Are all JC students like tt? I'm turning into a nerd soon... Life is zapping out of me. I need a break from school. Before the promos which is less den 6 wks away. But when can i afford the time?! There is no time. Even during the sep hols, i have to study and study and mug and mug to get my 1 A level and 2 AO level pass. This is shit..

Well, besides all these, i'm looking forward to Love Meridian Day. Why? I'm not sure myself too. I think it's cuz of the soiree and the retro/true blue theme. I wan to see friends in those. But at the back of my head there is a voice telling me tt i'm looking forward to Love Meridian Day cuz the nxt day i can go back HSC and reunite wif friends. and teachers who i might not have seen for 8mths..

Suddenly now i lost the mood to blog. Know why? Cuz i'm chatting wif gd friend!! yah!! haha!! I'm going crazy already. Juz like how easy it is to fall sick if the weather is very hot but it is raining.

And lastly, Lou___! Shit, i juz typed out her name. Should i delete it? Ya, i think i should.. But half of it only. I'm keeping the other half. but front half or back half? Hmm.. the back half sounds malay. So the front half den. Yup! finished blogging for today. Nxt wk's gonna be a long week. And i forsee myself not going to sch on Tues also. I dunno.. Juz wait and see..........

I've been very very busy these few days. Been busy doing hw, doing remedial exercises, studying for tests coming up every wk.. Carry on like tt and i'll have white hair (oh man!!). I can't believe i spent the whole of last Fri studying bio.. asking Mr Yeow qus until 530 when i ended at 1235. Tt's how much i absorbed. But wad i absorbed wad wad i should have known a long time ago. So, i'm still lagging behind others. Haizzz.. chem test this sat too..

Went back to school today.. was absent yst though. And had so much to do today. Can't believe it. Thought tt i take one day off and finish all my tutorials for like 2 wks so tt i can study for my tests. But discovered tt i only did maths and not chem and bio. Anyway, i lost my cell division tut.. haizzz. Wad de hell..........

Watched the 9pm show on ch 8 today. Den the xiaoyan played hard to get sia. One reach those scenes i immediately thought of one person.. maybe 2. San and lyn. Haha!! Remembered 2yrs 8 mths ago.. on tt vv day san tiok sth like pierre... But i see liao like quite fun leh.. but the guy will damn paiseh one. Haha!!
Yup, thought of her nxt after tt. Dunno y everytime we meet we like pretend to dunno tt we;re both there.. and i mean WE. Really!! Haha.. or at least i think she's pretending too. but i realised i'm beginning to be able to turn back to her faster den last time.. i.e. i pretend for a shorter time now and not until i'm like 3 m behind her before turning back. Great achievement huh...Haha..........

I was surfing around friendster and listening to Jiang Nan repeatedly. Somehow the feeling of loneliness yet having gd friends crept in me. Ya, it's contradicting.. But i feel that way. I went thru some of my friend's friendster accnt and thought that most friends made in JC will not be as stronly bonded with those made in sec and pri sch. For me, it's only sec sch.. cuz i din haf any really gd friends in pri sch.. Sad rite. So in sec sch made a few gd friends. At least i consider them to be my gd friends. Vid, Ray, YZ, Bit, San, Jun, Vin. In between is Loo. Next is be Wan, Raj, Rajiv.. maybe SMX.. haha! Soccer kakis, 'clacking' kakis, mid night movies kakis, 'get-into-fights and quarrels' kakis.. It was FUN!! Haha.. even the quarrels. I rmb the one with Karen Ng. Involved me vin and wan i think. Den after tt san also involved with her. Think back liao can laugh sia! Haha.. But it wun happen again now. Past memories gone with the time.

Of these ppl, i rmb quarreling with san a few times because we disagree on some small things. Like whether taxi can accept 5 person, or the GST in bills are counted before the 5% discount from the coupon we had or after. Quarreled with San the most times i think. I rmb one time we kick ball in Bedok gt a period i buay song him den everytime kick his leg. Stupid rite.. but it's over liao. Now was to kick also gt problem.. hardly can kick now le.

Next in line would be wan. This yr only. Cuz his bday i ask him go bb court kick ball before it rained. Den when he came it started raining heavily. He was damn pissed loh. So cold war till until recently only. From Feb until now sia. So long. But tt's the only time la..

Den finally is raj. This is damn stupid loh. Sec 1 i juz whacked him on his back. Forget why liao.. So long le.. and trival thing also.

Ok, back to JC. Although I'm with my class almost everyday, i dun feel as close to them as those MJCian i met during Orientation or LTC. I feel closer to them den my class ppl. Funny rite.. I hate my class. It's so split up. So sian. kkkkkk, i shan't go on about my class anymore. I've bitched about it enough in my blog le.

Ya, and i believe lots of JC ppl feel the same way i am. All missed their friends. Too bad for me in MJC out of the 12 i mentioned, only 1 is in MJC with me. And he has his girl with him. The rest.. in TP, TPJC, TJC, ACJC, or in sec 5 haising =D. THe worst is Ray.. in NS. Can't wait for him to come out. Denc an ask wad's NS like. Up-to-date info!!

Today is National Day!! Happy 39th Birthday Singapore!

I'm feeling very patriotic today. But den again i'm always patriotic. =D. Really!! I'm a true red-white Singaporean.

Stayed at home the whole day today. Planned to finish energetics and inqualities revision exercise. But spent the day understanding energetics, which i still dun understand. And doing Bio TYS. Yup, Bio TYS!! Haha.. flipped thru the last few papers and did the exercises on the topic tt wil be out this Sat. I'm so pround of myself. I act took out my TYS to do. I juz dun wan to kana retained. IF retained i'll enter poly with the Dec batch.. *CHOI!*

Wanted to watch the parade from the start but forgot about it until about 650pm. So started from den. I wanted to watch the entrance of PM Goh. Wanted to see the response he'll get when he stepped into the scene. But missed it. Saw it on the news though. He received a huge standing ovation. Felt rather emotional when they played his tribute. Saw all the things he did for Spore during these 14 years. And the words he say. "My fellow Singaporeans"~~~~~. And the letter to the pubilc during the SARS attack. He did so much. I was thinking if PM Goh became the PM on 1990, tt means SM Lee stepped down on 1990. 14 yrs ago.. and yet i still rmb his stepping down vaguely. Unless i am wrong and SM Lee did not step down den but some other time.. I was juz thinking, if SM Lee fought for Spore, gave us indepenndence, and set the foundation for Spore today, and when PM Goh took over and he worked on the foundation SM Lee set to bring about various policies to make Spore such a successful coutry today, what can DPM Lee do when he take over to match the contributions made by the first 2 PMs.. Well, i can only wait and see. But i think the effort SM Lee and PM Goh had put in has been exemplary for anyone to emulate..

Downloaded Jay's new album a few days ago. Haha.. tt's piracy. But anyway, his songs are quite nice. Lots of it not bad. When i first listen i thought this time his album is a failure. But listen listen listen liao den find his album quite nice. Songs like Ge Qian, Jie Kou, Yuan You Hui, Wai Po, Qi Li Xiang, Zhi ZHan Zhi Shang all not bad. Ok.. tt's like almost the whole album but really, they're not bad. Wanted to put either Ge Qian or Jie Kou up on my blog. But the web host was down. So cant... So now put Lin Jun Jie's Jiang Nan. It's not bad also. Catchy tune i think.. Btw, i dun understand y he call himself JJ Lin.. sounds weird.

And are those msgs in my phone signs of concern? Or "dun bother me anymore"?? I need help. Can an interpreter come to me asap?? I need to interpret the msgs soon, vv soon..

Finally back to blogging.. Had been very busy these few days with NDP rehearsals in school. Last till 8plus. Den being a studious person, i have to do hw when i return home. =D. So no time blog loh. Not that I have no rehearsals today. In fact today's rehearsal kept me back till 2210. Tmr's the day. The days of rehearsal were for tmr. So i pa guy cannot cock up. First major event!! Haha!
Ya, it's been a long week. School's so boring and normal.. AS usual. No change, no difference. Learnt new topics in bio and chem, and have lots of burning questions, the same with every topic.
Got back maths test today. Knew that i gt 10 a long time ago. Looking at my results and careless mistakes i made i can't believe where my As from my AMaths and EMaths came from. Simple manipulation i also dunno how to start. Careless mistakse everywhere. I need more practise! I could den at least get an A-level pass.
Passed her her bday present today also. Met her at 630. And she actually called me to tell me she had reached. Was really surprised when she did that. Din expect it at all sia. Thought she would juz msg me only. Ok, anyway, gave her her present. Her reaction was so shy and innocent looking. Haha. Well, i think i was also. The whole scene seemed very drama-like. Think back liao also like quite funny. Haha!!
Tmr need to be in school at 0615. Siao la! Dunno how to wake up sia.......