I juz came back from soccer.. and I’ve scored 2 goals!! Haha.. Yeah, I’m going on to rattle about them here.
The first one was from a free kick. No, I did not curl the ball past any wall. But bit tapped it from me and I blasted it past wan with a little help from vin.
The second is from open play against some outsiders. I gt the ball from wan somewhere in my own half near the half-way line. I took it down, not nicely. Almost missed controlled it. But when I thought the ball was going away from me, I hit it down and it bounced surprising the defender. With the ball under my control, I used the outside of my right foot to pull it away from the defender towards the right. I forced myself in between the ball and the defender and found lots of space. I looked towards the goal and shot. The rest is history. The pile driver flew past the keeper into the goal at the near post scraping the woodwork.
I’m tired now.. so gtg sleep le.. Noonz! =D

I’m happy. But not really happy.
I’m unhappy. But not really unhappy.
I’m tired. But not really tired.
I’m discombobulated. But not really discombobulated.
I know wad I wan. But I’m unsure of wad I wan.
I dunno wad I wan. But I know I wan sth.
I wan to have fun. But not too fun a fun.
I dun wan to have fun. But I long for fun.
I wan to do things with friends. But not too many things.
I dun wan to do things wif friends. But I want to preoccupy my time wif them.
I wan to go out wif the usual. But not too far away.
I dun wan to go out wif the usual. But I feel alone otherwise.
I wan to turn time back. But not too much.
I dun wan to turn back time. But there are things I lost the chance to do.
I wan to promote. But I worry for my As.
I dun wan to promote. But I worry for my time.
I think Elaine’s cute. But she’s also blur but fun, but others think otherwise.
I dun think Elaine’s cute. But she is cute.
I wan to play soccer tmr. But I dun have enough ppl to be shiok.
I dun wan to play soccer tmr. But I wan to exercise and be wif them.
I wan to say I’m fond of you. But I have no courage and strength.
I dun wan to say I’m fond of you. But I’ll regret in future.
I wan to know how you feel. But I’m afraid the truth hurts.
I dun wan to know how u feel. But I need to know it for my courage to rise.
I wan to study a lot. But tt’ll make me a nerd wif white hair.
I dun wan to study so much. But I wan to earn a lot in future.
I’m looking forward to Sunday’s class outing to Sentosa. But I’m afraid I’ll be quite alone.
I’m not looking forward to Sunday’s class outing to Sentosa. But I wan to join my class on their outing.
I wan to sleep now. But it’s a bit too early to start sleeping on a Friday.
I dun wan to sleep now. But I’ll be too tired tmr w/o sleeping early.

There are so many things that I am for, but there are also against points. Den wad’s the pt of it all? I dunno.. Sometimes we go wif the for points, sometimes wif the against points. But sometimes, we take a bit of both also. I dunno wad I’m typing now. So if u dun understand me, I dun understand myself either.

I juz had the parent-teacher dialogue meeting. And yup.. the truth is out and confirmed. As mentioned by the teacher, it is strongly advised, encouraged and decided that it is best i retake my year 1. In other words, i can't promote. It's amazing and surprising how i am not shattered by this and in fact the same jovial me. Dunno y? Haha..

Yup, so now i have to make a decision. To carry on, or to go to poly. But it is encouraged and i personally believe that poly life is better for me. The learning is more suited to me style. So.... i'm going to ask vid and lyn adbout their Biomedical Informatics and Engineering and Biomedical Science respectively. Soon!

If i go.. i'll definitely miss MJC. But maybe i would join in the June intake for the course. And still can be in MJC until like may and would still be able to be an OGL again for the 2nd O nxt yr. It's all my imagination la.. but it might be like tt. Very likely. So... either mjc, or tp. Most prob tp. Though i like jc style. But still, TP most prob. =)

While walking from one home to the other juz now, I thought.. Am I very optimistic or juz immature? I can forget almost all of the unhappy stuff that happened to me after a good night’s sleep. The next day I would be the same old me.. Cheerful I guess.. Sometimes I may be unrealistic; but I’m an optimistic person. I do not think of the “not good” things that would happen but only the good things. But is this immature behavior? Not being pragmatic about the things going around u and only thinking about the good times…
I should be getting back my results tmr. I’ll den confirm my promotional status. Whether I go up, or stay here. And the only thought I have is I’ll promote. But tt will need a miracle. To be pragmatic, I know I wun go up. But if I stay here, I dunno if it’ll help in the end cuz maybe poly life is better for me. Or maybe MJC is setting the standard too high such tt I dun understand wad’s taught. I still have one day to not worry about this… one more day.. and I would have to think about these le, and be pragmatic and not so optimistic; unless a miracle happens. In case I leave, I’ll miss MJC and the ppl =’.
Some people set goals for themselves, some have dreams, some follow their parents’ wishes and expectations and some do wad their friends so. For me, I’m not any one of those. I have no personal targets and my parents dun do tt, and my friends.. I’m not those kind. So I have nothing to push myself forward to. Even during Os, I dun have a target.. and was juz aiming to do well for MJC. Maybe tt’s a target.. I dunno…………..

There is a flying beetle knocking and clicking on my window now. Lunkily i am in the confines of my room with my windows shut tight (i hope) in the comfort of air-con. But the soud of it clicking on the glass irritates, annoys and fears me. I fear tt it will find a way into my room thru a small little creak somewhere on the window. I can't stand beetle.. flying ones esp. But are there any beetles which don't fly? And i can't stand cockroaches too.. whether they fly or not. If i stay on the 20th storey and the lift has one inside, i'll run upstairs. I can't stand flying six-legged miniature life-threatening monsters around me. They suck.

Got back the results this wk. Not exactly results la.. but the promo papers. I know all my marks. Haizzzz.. Start with maths.. my best among the 3 subjects. I gt back the paper.. and gt 38. Oh.. ok.. 38.. AO. Ya, AO. I was expecting AO after the paper.. but b4 the paper was expecting C. Ok, so add up.. overall AO. So 1 AO done.

Next, Bio. Gt 41 for promo paper. F. An F. For Bio. Oh man......... my A1 is luck one meh.. No wad. I personally dun think i deserved a F for the paper. I piah like 70% for the paper. Was expecting at least a D or E. Den come out kana F. Wad de hell.. i studied more den Os for this Bio paper. Die la.. was counting on it for an A. Ok.. but overall AO. So 2 AOs. Actually, i was expecting my bio and maths for an overall A level pass. But.. haizz

Now is Chem. My best subject. Yea, right. I nv did well in Chem. Never found a real interest in Chem my entire Chem life. And my foundation in Sec sch is damn weak. The same as the others in my class.. all find chem a struggle. I was expecting AO b4 the paper. After the paper.. i resigned myself to high F. But come back, gt 31. Wad right.. 31. Some ppl mcq alone win me liao. Haizzz. So overall F.

GP passed la. =P. Chi, not impt. So overall GP pass. But got 2O1F. OOF. Can i get thru? Dunno... I worry for my hsc 4e2 ppl in mjc also. We're all not doing well.

But despite the results, i signed up for OGL! If, and miraculously hopefully and luckily with some bribery, i can go J2 and be an OGL. Reggie! =)

It's Fri. I'm tired, but not cuz of sch cuz this wk is a 2 day wk for me. Anyway, today being Fri has no link iwf me being tired now..

Today is MJC's open hse. Well, if u missed it, i wun say it's ur loss. Cuz there's nth much. It's like a fun fair today. And all the plus pts are shown, but not the negative ones. No, i'm not those sort of ppl hu like to say bad things about the school. For eg like odac and canoeing, they show all the fun things but nv say anything abuot the PT being damn cham. Not tt i have any things against these 2, but still, i feel like sometimes we have to be more honest. Ok, but tt's not the pt.

I did pa duties and tour guiding today. Tt's y i'm tired. Way b4 the things started, i was busy setting up all the shit pa stuff. Den do do do do do, lay wires here and there liao, nth to do but to wait for the event to start. No, i did not rest. I wanted to rest. But i had more impt things to do. Which is to pay the remaining tic money for my class and collect the tics and pass it to them. So.... i calls mr yeow and asked him how shld i pass the $$ to him. But he said go office and ask the office ppl. So i went and ask the office ppl. Den the clerk referred me to a lady in the office. Den the lady said tt she is not the one collecting the money. Ok.......... den hu is it? So i ran all over the sch to find jos (no, ran as in figuratively), my assistant cg rep. Den find her liao, she also dunno yst she pass the money to which teacher. So i went back to the office lady and ask her to contact the teacher ic for me. So she did. And i spoke to this ms choo in the office when she was juz outside the office. So fine, i went out to look for her adn she referred me to another teacher and called the teacher on her cellphone for me. At the same time i received a phone call from a ms chen. And ms chen asked for my class's money. And at the same time ms choo is calling ms chen in front of me. How confusing the teachers can be. Ya, after this long grandmother story, finally i settled the money thing and i gt the coupons, and i ran about distributing the coupons.

Btw, talking abuot confusion in sch. There was this time i went to sch but my CT did not see me and marked my attendance as missing. During the same day, i had this MMC meeting in the GO. And in the middle of the meeting, i received a phone call from the office asking my for my whereabouts. And so, i told her i'm in the office, looked around, spotted a lady using an office phone, and said i'm behind u. She turned and looked at me. Yea.. this is how confusing the sch staff can be.

Back to open hse. After the pa and my class stuff, i did my tour guide thingy. I took 3 grp all tgt. 1st was some guys from AHS i think. They were rather "kept to themselves" and i felt bored. Luckily it ended in like 20min. Den nxt was some tkss girls. This was rather "wake me up". Not tt they're girls but they kept talking to me and did not "keep to themselves". But sadly, this nice grp had to go to LT4 for the P's speech. So, this shrot tour lasted like 10min and only for one destination. The last grp.... a grp of girls from SAC. This is THE group. I kept with them for 2.5hrs. Haha! Yup! 2.5hrs in MJC walking around. Cuz they tired the games and the things the diff clubs and societies did. So, it lasted quite long. They did not totally "keep to themselves" also. So, it was rather fun. At about 2hrs like tt, a girl from my 3rd grp wanted to go home first and i brought her to the gate. While walking past the tour guide booth, i saw HER her turn. I dunno wad it means or it is coincidental.

And in msn and sms she's so so so so so diff from real life. In msn, she would msg me first. Sometimes right after i sign in. Den sms she msged me like 2plus yst nite asking about sch. Haha.. Yea.. It's confusing. Things are so confusing. She's pretending not to notice me also. Think it's cuz of her friends. Cuz i see her friends near her i also dare not go near..Haha.. they say a lot sia. Like today, i was resting at my pa unit den she and her friends walk past. Her friends sort of like attracted my attention and i dun know y but started 'um jio'-ing. Den they laughed. Pretty weird huh.. haha...

Before anything, i juz want to tell everyone out there. NEVER get wireless even if someone pays u for it. It sucks!!!! U get no signal or disconnected for no bladdy reason! It's damn irritating.. Imagine d/ling sth big, den u kana no signal dne muz red/l all over again. Sian rite.. so NEVER EVER get wireless!
Ok.. so with that out of the way, i juz came back from the soccer match today! Haha!! We won them 7-3 i think. We lost coutn of the goals =D. Hai Sing Catholic Grads 2003 VS Anglican High Grad 2003. We won them by a big margin. Yea, that's not saying much does it? Or it does?? haha!
Goal galore! 1st half... Louis opened the scoring. Followed by Raj.. <-- this i MUZ explain. Nxt para!! Den san i think. Den they came back by Chung Chi den an own goal by wan. God knows wad he's doing shooting at our keeper. 2nd half.. we scored one from a free kick by a cambodian. Den louis, rajiv and one more dunno hu cuz it was vv dark at tt time. Can't see. Their last goal was also by Chung Chi. From a corner! From a corner!! wad de hell.. wad kind of defending did we have. He had a clear head on goal. Now the 1st goal conceded.. some bugger fouled me and made my roll on the floor injuring my arm and hitting my head before crossing to Chung Chi to tap in. Next, a clearance gone wrong and the malay shot it at our keeper hu was using the phone. Haha!
Ok, now...... for the Raj's goal. Nice play. Nice build up. Nice team work. (By this juncture u should have guessed that i played a part in it) I rushed for a ball deep inside my half. I raced towards the loose ball by wan. At somewhere near the middle of the field, i gt the ball and passed it back to wan hu was tightly surrounded by 2 buggers. So i ran forward expecting the return ball. Wan understood me (by playing often to improve understanding), and flicked the ball high up towards me. However, his ball was a little bit too strong and a bugger from MJC reached there about half a second before me. So he gt the ball. But he dilly-dallied a little and i managed to steal the ball away from him and started to rush forward. With him at my tail i went further upfield and looked up. I dunno hu's in the box bu saw blue shirts. So i crossed. As i was crossing, someone came from behind and attempted to steal the ball away from me, however, the he was too slow and i had already corssed the ball. He did prevent me from passing a perfect ball though. But still, i crossed the ball in. The ball curled and swerved into the ball. Some bugger attempted to intercept it but gt it all wrong and raj took advantage of the situation to steer the ball into the bottom right hand corner of the net. The build up was all from the right flank. Wonderful play! Haha!!!! =D
Ya, my team won chungchi's team.. Given the fact tt we had raj, vid, bit and loo not touching the ball for sometime. The longest was raj whose last touch was like 4,5 mths ago. And we did not have Raymond. This made David play out out of his fav position of LB, although we changed it during the 2nd half. With ray our attack would be stronger. The defence might be stronger too! This is one of the better matches i've played cuz i did tt assist. Haha! Usually i juz anyhow play. But hey, i improved since the last time we played as a team in hsc. Oh ya.. did i mention tt we did not play as a team for like one year?? So.. tt's how strong our team is.. Haha!
It was such fun! Not the match only but the clicking up wif the "friends of ur teenage life"! haha! =D. =)

Ok.. let's talk about yesterday.......
Went out, met jun and vin in tam at 1240. Den met raj somewhere after playing an indian hide-and-seek game. So the 4 of us. We met vid somewhere up to kenny rogers. But it was closed for renovation. So we went all the way down. Stood at the lobby for awhile before i gt cheated by them. So we went to billy bombers to eat. I paid the GST, service taxes and the drinks for the 4 of them. And including my own meal, tallies to at least $40.
Den we MRTed to queensway. Time flew by. Really! it's amazing how fast time past when u're crapping wif ur friends on the mrt. After tt we debated whether to take a cab or a bus. And we took a cab to queentown shopping centre. Paid by jun. and $0.40 from me. Cuz i dun wan the coins. We walked about and found a place to make jersey. Rather cheap. I bargained $1 from tt buggger and we gt $40 per set. And so, wrote out the name and nos. I almost put MOL as my name. But i changed it to JOEL. Sounded better. =D. Number is of course 2. Yup, den vin vid and i bought shoes.
After tt we took a Merc cab for a trip around Spore, figuratively. We took a cab, told the bugger St Wilfrid. Near Kallang tennis centre. So we reached kallang, and he doesnt know the place. So i called san and ask. Den the shocked all of us saying tt the place close liao. It was about 615 den. Ok, fine, so we returned back home. On the way, we decided to watch Jacky Chan's show. So we detoured to CS. Reached there and the price was like we went from Tuas to Pasir Ris. And i paid the whole $20 with vid completing the $0.50.The show was gd. Action and action and more action. Some parts were hilarious!!
Ok, after then show, went to BK. But met rajiv and joce on the way. So met up wif them. Talked a bit den went home. Pretty much for a day. And i watched Beckham's goal. Fantastic. Not tt i'm his fan, but fantastic.
And i have one big problem now. I have gt the people, the time and the jerseys for Tues' match against AHS. But, no place!! NO PLACE! I need a place to kick ball. But dunno where to book. Tmr i'm going aroudn Spore to find out.....

Thinking back to yst.. i think i'm mad! Woke up like 745 in the morning when i slept at like 1plus the previous night. And it's a after-promo holday!! I woke up, rushed thru my morning "rituals" and took a cab to sch to so tt i wun be too late from the meeting time of 8. In the end, i reached at 810 and i was the earliest one.. Shit. Anyway, played tennis wif chinpoh amir sengkim. Until about 12. While playing tennis 2 soccer balls fell from the sky. Ya and i was the one who kicked it both out of the place to the basketball court. The walls are high though. So a little bit of technique is required. =D
After tennis, i rushed home once again in a cab, bathed den rushed to take a mrt to tam to meet up wif chinpoh amir sengkim akrab and cassandra at kfc at tam. Bought 2 family meals and we finished them. Already tired from the tennis playing, i watched Exorcist wif them. The show is not tt scary.. felt ju-on was worse. After the show, walked about aimlessly den fragged for like 40 mins or so while waiting for akrab to come. He came, took over me, and i rushed to take a cab back home to change for my soccer game. Yes, soccer game.. to play in it.
Took a bus to the usual place den met up wif another grp of friends to kick about. Tt time i wad damn tired and couldnt think properly le. but nvm, still play. Performance sucks. As we all know, performance is inversely proportional to the level of tiredness. Until abuot 10.. den we zao. I took a cab home (again) cuz i was too tired.
From 8 to 10, i'm been out. It's damn tiring. But hu cares.. it's after prmos (screw it). I only managed to finally sit down on my com at 12plus.. AM. Yea, den played CM until like 4 den sleep. Haha.. I'm superman! So juz woke up today. And today my poly friends have all almost finished their exam. So come tmr, we'll be free. Come mon, everyone i'll be free except those in tpjc. They start their exam when everyone end.. pity them.
Btw, if u realised, i took a cab 4 times yst. And spent quite a bit. But my "motto" is, if u have it, spend it. Dun mistake me for one guy who is always broke. I'm like every other jc student hu is nv broke =D. haha! When i come into jc i realised tt everyone is hardly broke and always have some to spare. Well, i'm nv! Haha... And dun think of robbing me, cuz i dun bring much cash =P.
Cab fares added up was $15.90. Haha! And the kfc was $10 cuz we bought 2 family meals. And the movie was $7.50 cuz it's the opening day. I brought 100% out and returned with $5%. Haha!But despite these, i'm not a big spender. I usually can save up to 80% of my wkly allowance. My friends would know i save a lot =D. I dun mind spending to be wif friends esp. And i wud rather spend more on gd food than normal food...
And tt was day one of six!

The promos are gone.. the mugging days are gone.. the not-enough-sleep days are gone.. the tired days are gone.. and i'm gone too. Screw the maths and chem papers. Screw them from the top, the bottom, the side, diagonally, upside down wadever. I din study enough to be able to really do those papers.. Even an AO for the paper might be a problem. Esp chem!! Screw the section b and c. Not enough time plus not enough facts give u FAIL...

It's the first time in like 16 yrs tt i actually thought about the paper after the exam. I never did that at all. Not even during Os. The probability of me being in 05S205 is much greater... Dun ask me why 205 andnot 208. Cuz my 208ians said so.. These 6 days i want to let it all out!! But so far no plans yet. I know Fri eve is kick ball.. tmr's tennis and movie.. Dunno bout the remaining hours..

Oh ya.. i'm beginning to like my class a lot more! But is it too late? Ppl juz dun realise the gd things they have until they are going to lose them. Not saying tt to my class in particular..

4 more subjects.. 3 more days.......