i suddenly feel an urge to say this...

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!!!

Today reached sch at 9.. Was sleepy andd groggy all the way there. Den lessons as usual. UNTIL PE!! We did some free labour. Carried some planks/crates. All seemed fine at first. Until the last one on the floor. Firstly, the whole floor and edge of the plank we were supposed to carry and touch was covered wif cockroach and lizard shit. I mean it. Real shit. Egestion. 2ndly, there are live lizards and cockroaches crawling. The lizards aren't so bad. Cuz they have 4 legs. And they run away instantly. But the cockroaches.. eeee!! I juz can't stand them.. Haha! While we were carring it abuot 8m, the biggest fattest and browniest cockroach i've seem in my whole life. And i'm NOT exaggerating. It juz dropped on the floor. I heard the "plak" sound it made. I almsot jumped. =D After another 30m or so, another smaller one started to come out from the underside and crawl about. I jumped. =D. I juz can't stand cockroaches. Since young...

With creepy crawlies out of the way, I've been dreaming of 14/2. Not literally, figuratively. Pearlyn.. NO. I'm NOT dreaming of ur bday.. =D. Haha.. It's sth else.. I shouldn't say it here.. too many viewers. Haha!

I asked her "Does absence make the heart grow fonder?" last night. The reply? Yes.

That made me think back to the Dec hols last year. When i saw her for the first time in about 1.5 months at night somewhere near tampines mall. When we crossed, she gave me a big big smile and a wave so bag it could cause a tsunami...

Anyway, i wonder... i wonder...

And I'm rather consoled and happy tt she's comfortable saying things and not thinking twice about the things she say to me. An eg was last night's "idiot". Haha! =)

I've nth to do.. do maybe i'll write this.. not counting the OGLs

The first guy i know in MJC: Koh Chin Poh. We met while appealing for bio chem course during 1st 3 mths. Din keep in touch until we ended up in 208.

The first guy i know in MJC and kept in touch all the while: Irfan. We met during Reg4. He sat beside my during ice breakers. When we played the behind the poncho thing, we gt each other and it was a shocking yet fun experience

The first girl i met in MJC: Diana. We met in Reg4. Partnered during the first game. Forgot wad it was, and subsequent games. Kept in touch until about 5 mths back.

The first girl i met in MJC and kept in touch all the while: Louiza. We met during Reg4. First person in MJC i initiated a hi sort of "Bye" to. In short, said bye. Haha! Dance partners for couple dance. And.. =)

First teacher met in MJC: Mr Eugene Yeow. I'm the closest to him compared to other teachers. My CT during 1st 3 mths.

The first good friend i made in MJC: Toh Wee Keat. From 1st 3 mths 04S205. From Seng Kang Sec. A real gd friend indeed. We did things for each other we din expect the other would do. =).

The first class room i stepped into in MJC: E2-1. My 1st 3 mths form classroom.

I gt back my Personality Profiling results. Here are some which most ppl would agree wif me...

I get discouraged, but recovers well quickly.

I am seldom angry, but easily provoked.

I'm rather hard to embarrass.

I bring warmth to my friends.. beting affectionate;friendly

I am cheerful and optimistic.

I beat about the bush alittle.

I am approachable.

I am rather humble =D

I'm vv hasty and make hasty decisions.

I dun like to procrastinate.

I am a TEAM PLAYER. =D

It's Friday once again. I wodner how many times i've said this. But there're juz so many Fris. And fridays are days when i can rest. It is the start of 2 days of no school. Nop, not tt sch is not fun. It is. But the waking up early part is traumatizing. =D
I am now considered rather tired. But i like feeling this way b4 i sleep. It makes my sleep sweeter.. Haha! I can sleep w/o disturbance mah.. den tmr feel shiok when i wake up
Wodnering why i'm tired? Listen!! This morning, i played soccer during pe. Ppl hu play wif me would know tt my work rate is vv high. SO i ran and ran and ran. I guess more den most ppl. And i sweated the most too

Den after tt it's MJC's Road Race. Or cross country in short. I din RAN the whole 4.3km la!! But walking is bad enough. I ran a little though. So ok, after tt on the bus on the way home i felt a high concentration of lactic acid buildup in my right calf and ankle.

Anyway, i went to play soccer after tt till 10. So.. tt's y i am so tired. But i played a "no need to run much" role during soccer, so it wasnt so bad. Otherwise i would have a headache.

Oh!! My date with a vampire is a damn nice show! U MUZ CATCH IT!!!!!

Yst was the first time I ever ran 3km non-stop.. 1st time!! Haha! Tt's why after tt I came back home and felt vv tired. It's like morning soccers at Bedok. This proves that i run more than or about 3km while playing soccer there =D

Today i woke up with a little pull in my thighs. It's cuz of yst's run. But it should be ok tmr. Yup!

Today's also CCA Day. AVA Club. Cock name.. but wad to do. Anyway, talked quite a bit to the juniors today. =D. I always believe in getting to know more ppl. And i've gt to know the 6 of them today!! Haha!

Tmr's Wed. She's ending at 430 i guess. Should i? Shouldn't i? Last wk had an unexpected change on events. Let's bang on fate this time, i hope.. (Fingers crossed)

If u haven watched My Date With A Vampire series.. u better start watching them now. The scriptwriter is a genius.. Although it's all fiction, it seems real enough to me. I'm currently watching part 3. Left 6 more discs and it's over. I have to say it again.. the script writer is a genius! The theme songs are not bad too. It gives the "feeling" to the scenes. The sadness and joy.... I dun understand cantonese, and though the songs are in cantonese.. I still feel tt they're not bad..

Liu Ruo Ying does have a unique voice... Some of her songs are really nice.. haha!

I juz finished a post on the 205 blog. =) So i've sort of exhausted my blog mind. There's nth much to say here.. Haha!

Today i did a couple of firsts!! I lobanged vin, which isnt saying a lot, and scored. That's a first. Another first was while playing last man. I started a move and finished it off with a volley. It's another first. Felt rather satisfied wif it. Oh.. my composure has increased!!

I think i fractured my left toe. It happened a vv vv long time ago i guess. Cuz i juz cant seem to bend it w/o hurting it. Each time i try to bend it more than 90 degrees i feel a pain. My right toe can do it w/o hurting..

http://www.hahahumor.com/funny-movies/hippo.htm <-- This never fails to crack me up! I find it vv funny and cute!! Haha!
I derive fulfillment and happiness by making ppl laugh. That's why i am ME. When ppl laugh cuz of sth i say or do, i feel happy. I can be a human laugher. One who makes ppl laugh. Similar to a turkey masturbator. Haha! They are professions. REAL professions.. at least for the turkey masturbator one. It's funny rite.. turkey masturbator. How does a human masturbate a turkey? I gt it during GP class. We were doing a passage on turkeys and came the phrase.
Rmb mentioning about dreaming about her? Literally dreaming? Yea.. Dreams are wad the subconscious mind thinks. Well, now, i have stopped dreaming totally.. i think i'm too tired to dream. But i've been thinking consciously subconsciously. Get it?? When I gt the VCDs, the first person tt came to my mind was her. Cuz she watches it too and i wanted to lend it to her. And when asked for a plastic bag, luckily i have it. Or else i would do wad esther said to go around looking for one. Anyway, recently, things are looking rather gd.. i hope..

=)?? =(?? I dunno! But for me, it's always/ most of the time =) !!

Anyone wans to go jogging? Haha! Yea.. as in jogging. There are times when i feel like jogging but alone quite sian. But hu wans to go jogging for no apparently reason besides me?? =D

The wk's ending soon! Cuz Fri some ppl need to go slaughter some lambs.

1 min 4sec. 2nd call. Not too bad. Longer den the first which was 20+s.. haha! But alamak. Is it me? Or is it both of us? I think i spoke too fast, but i could hardly think. And the replies were single words. Maybe she din know wad to say either.. But it's ok! I'm being optimistic =D. Since on sms and msn there's a continuous flow of words.. soon.... it'll be the same on the phone. Haha! Tongue-tied..

Every Tues, i go to sch for 4 hrs before i'm dismissed. How short is tt for a JC2 student?!?! Haha!

It's vv vv vv hard to d/l songs now. I can't seem to install kazaa. Imesh sucks. Ppl are getting vv selfish in IRC. SO there're no songs to d/l. No sources!! I wan the new songs of Ren Xian Qi. The first 2 tracks sounds quite gd..

OH!! =) <-- big big smile =) Haha! Guess y?! =D

The theme song for "Lucky Charm" is vv meaningful..

It's Fri again! Means can sleep alte for the nxt 2 days and wake up much much later also. But it also means muz chiong tutorials and assignments for the nxt wk. Anyway, lots happened this wk. Juz look at the other posts.. haha.. Ppl were coming from all over asking me wad was wrong, whether i'm ok, wad did i do. But in the end, it's nth. I guess it brought me closer to them bah.
Today sort of had a 205 outing. fast huh.. =D. We were doing CIP.. mercy relief. It was like going to the gym w/o aircon. It was tiring work. But worth it la. I bao kao liao. Did everything. But the main thing i did was to shift the filled boxes to the "box sealers". It isn't easy k. Muz bend up and down to get the boxes and bring it to the sealers. At the end of it, when i stood up straight my lower body was trembling a little. And i was sweating like mad. Think i did one of the most! Haha! Afterall my workrate is 9.5 =D.
After tt we went to Pizza Hut at Heartland Mall for dinner. 21 of 205 ppl went!! Ms Huda treated usthe meal. So yup. Gt to recognise EVERYONE in 205 le!! I had problems wif the Malay girls. It's confusing at the start. But it's ok now. In 205, the first ppl i met was boon rui =D. Yup.. den blah blah blah know all the guys. Joyce, Shu Hui soon came in, but in knew them b4 hand. So today sort of gt to know constance kiran sharifah and gt to know yee ching. Gd huh.. the list is growing. During dinner the class was rather fun. Maybe at the end of January I'll have a totally different opinion of the class! =D

Ok. In msn for quite some time le... She would msg me first whenever we're both online. But she wun have anything to say and i would start the conversation. But i dunno whether by msg first it means a certain sth cuz i DID ask for sth. Haha! And our conversations are getting smoother! She's aksing qus and crapping along too! Unlike the beginning when i did everything. Oh.. and during pe today!! She smiled (silently saying hi) at me first, but i din smile back la, cuz i was tired running. But i smiled back in the msn chat. Haha! At tt time she was wif Peckjoo. But whenever she's wif mavis they all she would act blur. But if i'm wif chinpoh they all i would act blur too! Haha! Cuz they will tease us la. =D. Wad am i saying?! haha!! Anyway, it's been quite some time huh.. rite? Haha! And it's been more than 1 yr since we first met.. Like 2 REMAL mates said last june (a long time ago huh), "Since she is willing to sms u at night during this camp when the both of u are juz a room away, this shows tt she likes u too." "at night dun sleep but msg.." and finally" wad's keeping the both of u?" My reply was, "i'm too slow..." First time la.. haha =D. It's been 7 mths since tt day.......

Part 1: 208

When i sent out tt msg yst, i din expect any replies. But the replies i gt... =). Thanx guys. A lot a lot.. =)

Part 2: 205

Sorry guys. I din know the sentence 205 is nth compared to 208 could be so hurtful. Sorry. But really, i'm trying to get into the class. The guys are rather well bonded. And from wad i can see, boonrui and teekeong will make vv vv vv gd friends who would help u in a gang fight. This is of course frmo the vv short time of 7 days spent wif u all. But as the days go by, i would know u all better. The first thing i need to do is to talk to everyone in the class. There are ppl who i haven even talked to before. Sad huh.. So i muz work on it. Otherwise the whole yr sian sian. How can rite.. muz do sth. CG Rep somemore.. hoh?! I feel the need to work harder on it cuz u ppl have been trying to get me in also. Muz not let u all down =). Oh, and teekeong, thnx...

205 is nth compared to 208.
In 208, the guys and girls mix around.
During recesses, we have an unofficial area in the canteen whereby we always sit at. In class, there wun be an obvious separating line between the groups. We quarrel / confuse / make fun of teachers esp Mrs Quek =D, we do it together. We said things in unison. We know wad the other will say. Both the guys and girls. Leon and Alex. The main entertainers of the class. Amir too. The whole class laugh at their comments. Sometimes mine too.
Love Meridian Day.. some wanted retro, some wanted true blue. But within 3min, we all decided on retro. 3 min!! And we had a class outing.. shop for the clothes, give each other comments, laugh at the outfits if they were mismatched.. haha! Tt outing was the most successful. Preparation for the class performance was the best. A simple song, stand by me, was presented by my class in a manner which touched all of us. After much preparation, the end product was superb. I think for tt, Alex deserved the most credit. And for all he put in, he was reward with a wonderful performance on our part.
Our 1st bbq, and only bbq. We were having Maths lecture in LT5. When someone juz say, "Eh, wan to have a bbq during a hols?" And the msg was spread down the row, and murmurs of "when, where, ok, yes!!, yup" were heard. And the bbq was set. We planned, or more likely i planned. haha... Gt the place, discussed a little. At tt time the class was over dependent on me as a CG Rep to lead and do the stuffs. Anyway, in like 10days, we had the bbq. We had everything. Nothing was lacking. Of the 19 active class members, only 2 did not go. Leon and Tingyi. They were preoccupied wif other impt stuffs. But the rez went. And I imparted Polar Bear to the class. It's a simple game, but it is fun if played by a lot of ppl. So at Marcus' place, we bbq, stayed till 12 i think before packing up. This is the first outing...
So in class, at the end of 2004, we were almost like a whole. But somewhere in Aug, there were a few main groups: Leyi Yilin Huili Megala Eugenia Alex Wenze, Megan Jeremy Josephine Weeling Weilin, Amir Chinpoh Tingyi Leon Muralee Me ChungChi. But ther groups are more or less linked la.
Then came X'mas. At Leyi's place. =)
Recalling Alex's attempts to figure out Chinese characters n Chinese class.. And our getting chases out of Chinese class.. And Mura Lee's related to Mr Lee.. And how everyone was tired at the same time.. And how we were late for one of the first PW lectures cuz we were at Hougang Mall having lunch.. And how we would push each other during NAPFA.. And the slow process which Mrs Quek gt used to our "jokes" and even attempted some on her own.. the list goes on and on and on...

Ppl treasure the things most after they have lost them. No matter how united 206 seemed to me, now, 208 is the most united and wonderful class to me =)

I gt this from a song: Memories, the more beautiful, the scarier, the more the struggle, the easier it is for the tears to fall....

When i sent out the sms today, i din expect replies at all. But when the replies started to come in, i realised how close 208 is. And I'm vv touched by it, and the replies i gt...

When Yilin saw me today, she said i looked vv happy. Am i? I replied by saying tt I'm with u all. There was Chinpoh Amir and Alex there too. After one whole day of boredom in 205, the release is tremendous. =)

It's been one whole wk of school! Today was the last day of Orientation. It ended at 11PM. Late huh.. I was doing the pa stuffs, the usual. And i am vv proud of Regulus. My OG when i entered mjc. Besides going from last to 3rd <-- sounds gd? =D, Regulus 3 especially was vv united. When the final results are being announced, i even saw a group of girls sitting in a circle and praying for Regulus to be first. When we gt 3rd, they were nevertheless disappointed. But at the end, they even initiated a "woosh" hand on top of hand thingy themselves. This shows how united they really are! Jeffrey was their OGL, and i know he did it. =).
Tingyi's OG gave her some stuffs and a card at the end. And she was so touched tt she cried. If my og gave me sth like tt, i would definitely be vv vv touched as well. It also gives a great sense of achievement.

I've been blogging rather less frequently lately.. well, sch has started.... Nitez

School seems so short these few days.. compared to last year that is.. The periods are shorter by 10min. So the day ends earlier also! =D And Tues Wed Fri are short days for me. Wed.. CCA day? How? Haha! We only have 2 members.

These few days I've been occupied by 2 things. One drama serial, another a song. The drama is My Date With A Vampire 3. Yup, part 3. I bought the disc from weiling for $30. And i've been watching it. 2 days, 2/3 of the show i've watched. It is addictive. Once u start, u cant stop! The song.. it's Jue Jiang by Wu Yue Tian.. U can listen to it now =D.

And today it happened again. By the bus-stop. Haha! Walking in diff directions.. wif our friends teasing. =).

I miss being an OGL! I ended sch early today so went to the hall to look at the Orientation.. I miss being in there. Being an OGL is vv fun... I shall talk abuot it another day.. Nitez..

Day 2.. Well, the 205 ppl are nice ppl though. Friendly i would say. I think the guys are trying to bring me in.. I should work harder to go in also.. Anyway, I'm going to struggle wif work this wk or so.. cuz i'm missing lots of stuffs...

And. I'm surprised at the reply i gt back last night. I din expect tt from u, though i hoped of it. Rather touched by it.. Haha! I hope u're reading this... Tt night somewhere around TM.. i met u wif u 206 friends. And u gave me a vv vv big hi! haha! Rmb?? Yea.. But when i meet u in sch wif the other 3 of them, u know hu =D, u look away. It's the same wif me also.. haha.. But i've beent rying to work on it....

I juz had one last thought.. Do i have a confidant or confidante??

When ppl ask me whether i feel weird, or lonely, or bored. i dun wan to say nop, give a smile, laugh a little, turn away and my expression change. I dun wan to for a smile or a laugh when i talk to my new classmates to show that I'm friendly. I dun wan to think twice before I say or do anything in class cuz I'm afraid of portraying the wrong image. I dun wan to act in front of my classmates and friends.

I wan to do and say wad I feel like saying. I dun wan to thinking about the words or actions i say or do. I juz want to speak my mind freely. I dun wan to have any restraints on my actions. I wan to be myself and do wad i normally do. I juz wan to be MYSELF COMFORTABLE. Comfortably... This is the key word. I want to be comfortable wif my classmates. It's vv vv tiring to put on a false mask. VV VV tired...

Good night...

Yilin's blog dated 3/1/05, or today... The sadness "reverberated" in me. Not tt I'm experiencing totally the same thing. But... I feel for her...

Anyway, I'm not in the best of moods now. I'm moody. Unsettled. Requesting for a transfer. And juz handed in a transfer request. Cannot adapt to the new lifestyle. Sounds familiar??

I juz wan to sit down and stare into space. But it's a wate of time. I know it isnt contructive usage of my precious time this yr typing this blog but it's better den juz stopping and not doing anything..

In short, I dun miss 208 cuz the ppl are still around. I miss having lessons and studying wif 208. We took one WHOLE year to get together. I did a lot.. a lot as a CG Rep. More den was most others did. In order for class unity. And we sort of had a little last yr. The foundation for a skyscraper. And now this yr it split. THe foundation collapse. And the worse thing for me is, I am the new CG rep of 205. I muz do the same building of foundation again. I muz enter the bubble of 205 which was created last yr. It wun be easy.. and I'm too tired and occupied to try my fullest also. Where's the motivation for school now? Let's give me about 2 or 3 wks.. LEt's hope....

I juz hope tt no 205 ppl sees this.......

I juz looked at the annual.. Looked at 204 and 205. 205... who is there?!?!?! 204.. Tiff, Den, Joel Koh(at the vv least, and we can confuse the teachers). 3 ppl. Plus MY's there too. To put it simply, I want to go to 204 and be part of the 7.

However, 204.. the teachers are boring teachers.. except Mr Yeow. 205.. Except for Ms Soh, all our teachers are rather fun.. as far as i can see today la..

Oh.. she looks gd in tt hairstyle. The hairdresser did a better job this time. Haha!

S205.. day1. Pretty bored.. and lonely. The peeps are in 204.. It's making new friends and knowing new ppl all over again in a new class. Except for 4 or 5 others who were wif me. I dun look forward to going to sch.. at least for now. I hope...

This is the year 2005! The end of 2004. I spent the first few minutes in Loo's hse playing Winning Eleven. =D. Yup.. me vin jun bit and wan went to loo's place for"countdown" or sort of. Partly cuz it rained heavily yst. The first time it rained so heavily on a new yr's eve night as far asa i can rmb... Anyway, we went there.. hardly slept. So now I'm home. Not say vv sleepy, cuz i slept for 5 hrs i guess..

2 more days before the chiong for As......

Times flies....

Tmr's Singapore-Myanmar semis Tiger Cup!!

I've a thought.. The rain washed away everything of 2004. 2005 will start anew! =)