Blogging 2nd time today...

Btw, i'm now using iSqueeze! (Yes,ting yi. I am being iSqueezed!! =D).

Anyway, there's sth i wan to say. Do guys my age that is 17-18, want to look their age, look like 15-16 or look like in their twenties? Huh... Weird qus rite? Ya, but i was juz wondering. For me, i would rather look much younger den my age. Look so old for wad rite... Ty was saying that there was this young boy who called her guy uncle. UNCLE!! I mean u're 18 and someone aged 8 callsu uncle. At least a kor-kor la. Uncle is vv old leh. I would freak out if someone calls me uncle in that circumstances.

And also guys usually,USUALLY, look younger den girls of the same age. Look arnd! Haha! Ya, and we were talking about me looking 15 and she looking 18. Though both are 17.

I feel old. Yes, this is the dunno-how-many-th time i said that. But i feel old. I dun wan to feel old. Btw, how old does She look?Hmmmm......

Ok, i'm so tired now............ Good nite ppl!

Juz came abck from shopping wif ty. And my legs are aching. Not cuz of shopping. But shopping plus morning soccer. No rest sia. On my feel almost the whole day. And in 15min time i'm going out agin for my bro's bday. But this time, luckily there's car!

I lost my ball during soccer today.

But that's no the pt. After soccer i rushed home and bathed before giong out at 1245 to meet ty at pasir ris mrt. Yes, the rain was damn big at that time. And i had to walk to haising bus stop to take a bus to interchange. And i wasn't late! and i had to wait for her. (yes, i waited for u =P). Haha.. but she reached first la, went to toilet in ws first.

So went to parkway. Took mrt to bedok. Den when i reached there i not sure whethe the chartered bus is at bedok mrt or at tanah merah mrt. So called jiv and asked loh. Luckily it's at bedok mrt otherwise we muz take the train back.

Reached parkway. OH!! On my way there i noticed CHIJ Katong Convent for the first time. I din know where it was or wad it looked like until i saw it. Pretty nice school.. abit like pte sch like tt. So unlike haising sia! Haha! Ya, so reached parkway. Ate before walking for 2hrs plus. We sort of managed to buy our stuffs. But i shant say she or i bought until the time's right. Dun want ppl hu accidentally drop by to know certain stuff.

That's today. And i gt something wif ty. Cuz she had to run for the bus and this thing is in her bag. Nvm, monday or some other day can take it.

I'm rather satisfied la.. wif wad i bought. But most imptly, i need a ball! Otherwise next week no ball. I looked at some balls at parkway, but they suck. Those in the 20s are too heavy. The lighter ones are in the 50s. Maybe tonight if i past by sportslink or sth i can look again!

Ok, i'm going out again now...........

It's a Fri night and i'm not feeling tired at all. Amazing huh.. Given that yst i slep at 12 and today woke up at 630, and also i did not take any afternoon nap.

Juz came back from Jun's bday dinner, which i planned once again. Not juz la, came back at 10 plus. But now den gt the mood to sit down and blog. We ate at Phin's Steak House. Food so-so, ok. Service was rather bad i guess. Did the minimum. Anyway, hu went? Me vin jun raj loo ray xena lyn yanru jo hung lily. Spent 3hrs eating. Actually 1plus. Spent 1 hr waiting for everyone to arrive. Esp loo and jo who came the latest. And spent another 20min or so thinking of wad to eat. And another 20min or so for the food to arrive. Ray bought a cake for jun. Ok fine, a Slice of cake for jun. But it's the thought tt counts rite! To think Ray juz touched down from thailand this morning. He juz came back from his NS overseas thing. After dinner, walked around a bit den went home. Everyone saw kaiming though.. jo's bf. He's a gentleman's gentleman. =D.

Ok, den tmr my day's rather packed too. Dunno where gt time to study. Luckily wad's due nxt wk is considered rather little. That's not counting my own studying. Morning kicking ball. Weekly routine. And in preparation for nxt sat's game against TMS one yr our junior who won AHS 6-1. Ya, den after that going out wif ty to buy some stuff. And she was so willing cuz she needs to get sth for her 2nd mth aniversary for her guy. And i'm getting some stuff for Her bday. Nxt sun leh! Pretty fast huh. At least this time i know wad to get. Last yr's jigsaw is so dumb la. I'm so paiseh even to think about it. Too girly for her. Haha! Shut up vin.

That's tmr...............

Thurs is a truly FULL day for me. And Thursdays are days when i am most tired.

Every Thurs i have lessons all the way until 5 plus. Den reach home at 6, dinner at 7, superstar at 830. Toilet stuff den the negotiator show on ch u at 10. Den at 1130 it's Superstar results. Packed huh! Haha! But i like packed day. The only thing is, there's sch the next day!! Awwww..

Ok, i'm tired and i cant think properly. I'm blogging for the sake of blogging cuz i haven blogged in days. Been busy wif work and more work. In fact when i'm typing this i have some math practice papers on my desk waiting for me to CONTINUE.

I'm haf nth to crap about. School has been same.. dull.

Lastly. Superstar. Guys are all fantastic.. except the fast songs. Haha.. Dun really support any one of them currently though. Girls. The 4 of them suck. Cant sing slow, cant sing fast. Oh man.. Btw, note 4 of them? The last one's fantastic! Look at kelly's movements!! Haha! And her singing techniques too! Like wad the botak said.. The difference between her and the 4 others are miles apart and she stands out!

Recently it started.. I can think properly. As in i dunno wad the next step i'll take be.

Normally, i dun plan my days. I usually can haf a rough idea wad i'll be doing the nxt day. It's like i can tink of wad i'll do. But recently, i can't seem to think wad i'll do nxt. Or wad i shouldnt do next. Is it stress? I wouldn't know.

Sometimes on my way home i suddenly feel lost. And when i'm at home, i juz want to lay back on my chair and daze at the ceiling. Each time i daze, the thought that As are coming and i know nuts come, so i haf to stop dazing. Yet when i try to do sth else like read my notes, i cant seem to think. Ah!!!!!!!!! Someone help me!!

The worst so far is that i dunno whether to sleep or not to sleep when i'm vv tired at night. Cuz if i dun sleep, i'm afraid the nxt day i wun wake up in time or feel vv tired and cant concentrate in sch. But yet if i sleep, i'll be wasting the day away as the nxt day would be a brand new day with new worries.

I need to get my clear thinking back.

This is a tag reply to wan. But it goes out to everyone.

"money aint everything.. attitude matters.. ".The story is that we were in a cab going away from haising from downtown side. Wan wanted to stop at the bus stop opp his hse, but i told him to stop after the cab came out and at the bus stop nearer to his hse. It made sense rite? On the way everything. But no, reply was bad. So wad else can i say to bring my pt across? "I pay, i decide".That's the trump card.

Why i posted this? Cuz EVERYONE out there hardly listens to my comments and views. It's called selective biasness. Wadever i say, u look on the surface, and think it made no sense. Think deeper. If i'm crapping, u can tell from my expression. But when i'm serious, i get irritated with response like vin's blahblahawearjakjhfhl jdsakajkhfkd.

A certain amt of respect has to be given. I think san would feel sth like tt. And to wan again, no, i'm not saying u dun give me respect. In fact u give me a lot of respect. But sometimes, ya..

I let u all tease me and all that, but there's a limit to everything. I'm spelling it out right here for the first time. I'll get irritated and disappointed.................

Dun see my easy-going nature as my weakness. For the old friends, guess u shld get it. Newer friends, well, juz rmb that. Easy going doesnt mean i'm a punching bag. Think of wad i've done.. everything.. juz think and not say "ya la, i know u did a lot but hu cares". Put urself in my shoes. Juz think......

To wan again, this entire post is not exactly for u. Only the first para or so. And i've nv flaunted wad little cash i haf in front of u all and use money as wad i did today. All the while my cash was used for things that make all of us happy and grow closer. Rmb the 50 from me 30 from san for pre-o-level bbq? Ya..... Today was a last resort and cuz it's so near the turn. And in a cab, i feel vv paiseh when we all or shld i say u all or they all talk about money, cuz there's the driver. PMS in short... My attitude? Needless to say. U all know it. It's proportional to how much i'm irritated.

And now to haoming. Juz one thing to say. And after i say it, juz relate it to urself and not find any other stuff to think about. Juz concentrate on urself den forget it. During all the time i've known u, u r vv sensitive. But wad's annoying me is the things u say when u r sensitive. When u say those things, u r insensitive to wad the ppl u r referring to feels. Think i'm crapping? No, think more. Juz think and not defend urself. Think... If u're uncomfortable wif this part on u in my blog, den tell me and i'll remove it. But think....

I was reading some of my past entries and at the same time listening to a vv sad song - Zhang Zhi Cheng's Hen Xiang Ni. I realised the comments i made about 108 were true from my heart, and those i made on 205 is shit. It was like fictional writing. All the feelings were faked! At that time, i only wanted to appease everyone. And thinking back, i realised that having to answer to ur own blog entries is stupid.

And also, after 7 mths with 205, there isn't one third as much happening than wad happened the whole 7 mths with 208. I'm come out wif a hypothesis. My pro-activeness has decreased tremendously this yr cuz of the splitting of 208. Self-explanatory? I guess if the VP asks me about pro-activeness, i would say that.

And i teared a little with thi song and previous blog entries conbined....

It's been about a week since i last updated. School's been boring. The pressure's increasing. I can feel it. And if i can feel pressure, there IS pressure. As is coming and OFF are bad results.
Anyway, enough of school. Ok, so after one wk, i blog and start of wif her. Shut up vin. So ya.. today is a fine friday afternoon and i juz returned home from school.
When ppl say that time flies when u're at the bus stop talking to Her/Him (<-- not god!), they're wrong. Time dun fly. Time flows by without u feeling that time has flown by. And when ppl say the bus comes faster when u're at the bus stop talking to Her/Him (<-- once again, not god!), they're wrong. The bus come slower. But.. it's a gd thing rite? Bus coming slower so there's mroe time to talk b4 going home. Especially if both of u are taking different buses.
With the above intro, here's the content. It's a fine fri day afternoon. With the birds chirping on trees (this is shit), and the leaves bristling from the light breeze. It makes the walk from the sch side gate to the bus stop opp a comfortable one. While standing under the partially cloudy sky with kenneth talking b4 his bus came, 358 went past at the opp side. After kenneth boarded they bus, 53 stopped and i was crossing the road. So i missed 53 too. I sauntered across the road to the bus stop. And saw her there. Ok, i noticed her when i was with kenneth. Anyway, no mavis, no esther, no yenni. Around me, no one i knew. So, hi~ With a longer den usual, personal up-front conversation follow. No rapid electrical impulses generated by the SA node. The pulse was as smooth as the flow of clouds. So the bus came quite slowly. Really! It's not a figment of my imagination. So, finally went home wif her w/o my friends or her friends around. And i noticed quite a few things which i shall not put here lest i am accused a stalker. But i so regret something i did. It was a conditioned reflex response. Usually when ppl offer me sweets, i would juz show the no sign wif my hand. And i did it again?! When she actually took TWO sweets out from her bag. In times of tt, it was a commodity to accept it. But.. ya. If i were the one i would feels so rejected la. Oh man........

Her coolness is amazing! =D. and her bday is coming up in 2 wks time also! Hmm.. gt some ideas. But shhhhhhh. =D. Haha!

I guess that's it for today?

Oh, wait! one more! I did 11 roudn aroudn the track today. First did intervals of 2 rnds in 3 min and 1 round in 2min for 2 sets. Den rested for an hour, before did 5 rnds in 11min. 4.4km. Long distance huh. Dunno tmr i can tahan not....

Juz came back from a soccer game.

Unplanned game. Vv last min. At about 0805, Chung Chi called me and ask me if i'm awake and whether i wanted to play for his team which lacked players. And also to call my ppl along. Ok, so i called, and vin and wan went along wif me.

Played at Ubi field. Screwed up team i played for. Totally screwed up. Cant do nuts. All individual. So, lost 6-1. 6-1!!!! When usually is the score line my team wins. 1st half scored 4. And when i converted to CB, only let in one from a direct free kick. =D. Of course wan and vin would say tt when they coverted to DMC, they made an impact too. Vin let in 1 goal as keeper, and when he played outfield, let in another one, from direct free kick. Wan let in 4 goals as keeper, and when he played up, let in 2 more. =D.

Team wif no team spirit and movement. We agreed that Chung Chi dun deserve to play for that team. He sould be in our team. He's like a ballack. Haha..

Anyway, gt another contact from the capt of the other team. TMS, one yr our junior. So we'll be playing against them most prob on the 6th of Aug.....

Thursday is the day that i am most tired. Last wk like tt, this wk also. Have sch till 5pm.. maybe tt's y bah... And it's also nearing the end of the wk...

So, i'm tired. I wanted to say sths about some blog. But too tired to think of the phrasing to ensure social stability. Get it? .....

And i juz re-realised sth while editing my template. Having a slow internet connection enables one to read the source of a javascript prompt. =X. That applies to my blog too! Shit!

There's nth to blog about recently really. In school, nth interesting. Boring lifestyle so far. And i doubt this Sat i would be able to kick also.

My leg isn't healing fast enough.. the blood clot hasnt appear. Blood! Faster fill my knee and coagulate over the piece of flesh. One consolation is that the abrasion is rather superficial, cuz hair still remained and did not fall off. So at least some layer of skin is there cuz hair follicles fall below the 3 layers of skin =D.

Argh!!!!! This injury causing me lots of probs and inconvenience. Grrrrr!!!

Superstar now. I've changed guy. =D. Now the 2 i support are.. kelly still, and wei choong. =D. Haha! Din vote for weichoong today though. Theat bugger gt 39.5. The highest ever.

No mood sia. Sian.... i'm moodless. Now i wan to lie back do nth, and play a sad song but with a rather fast tempo. Eg: Li Sheng Jie's Yuan Zou Gao Fei............

I think it looks like a heart... Haha..

I feel so old. Cuz i'm the 1987 batch. And we're all turning 18. Ppl say ur life starts when u reach 18, and when u reach 20, ur life will fly by...............

This is was i gt during soccer today.. Never had i experienced external injury during soccer... Haizzz. This is so irritating...!!!

I want my regular As in Bio grades back. I haven been getting them since i stepped into JC, whereas getting As during Sec sch was like the norm =X. So, i wan them back. Today, i pao-ed the whole of kidneys. Ask me anything, i recite them to u. I realised there's so much to memorise, and understanding alone is insufficient. Haizzz. Anyway, from now, everyday i would haf to finish memorising and understanding on topic. Started wif kidney today. Tmr will be liver....

I'm surprised at how tired i am today.

It's a long day in school la.. the whole day until 5. Den when i came back home. Checking the usual stuffs on the net. I juz slouched and fell alseep... That was how tired.

Anyway now watching the Superstar results. So far Leon out, Jun yang in. Ruth in the black one out. Now............ the 2nd guy who is out is.. screw them. Advertisment. Anyway, i'm supporting kelly. If she's out den no kick watching. Haha! Guys, derrick and jason. I like jason cuz he talked back. I like ppl hu talk back =D. But one of them haf to be out. Haizzz. Din vote for them though. But i sent F2 to 78277 5 times i think.

Ok, advertisment over. The guy who will be out is derrick!! Wad de hell! Oh man..... i thought he was very good. But luckily he gt a higher chance den jason to come back in the another round. Hope so... have to vote liao. Haha..

Now the girls.. it's kelly!? Oh man!!!!!!!! She's so damn good la. But she'll be the best among the nxt roudn to come back. Cuz next wk's girls suck. 5 votes not enough? $3 sia. btw, she kept smiling on stage also. Nice smile =D. (Girls with nice smiles =DDD) Haa!

Anyway the show's getting interesting. Derrick and kelly out! VV interesting. Argh!! Kelong!!!!

I think i shld lose 5 more kgs. Den i'll look at best =D

Today is Youth Day. Or is it yst tt's y today is a holiday. I dunno, but in any case, it's a holiday for JC ppl today. Poly ppl dun haf a holiday today =P.
Went out wif jun and bit today. Went to town to shop for bit's stuff initially, but i took the chance to also juz look arnd for some stuff =D. Anyway, we first went to takeshimaya. Wakled around in circles trying to get out of "takashimaya" and into ngee ann city. Went from building 1 to 2 back to 1 and to the basement finally we were out. Ya, so looked at jewellery shops. Perlini's silver stuff are eewee. So boring. Anyway, walked in ngee ann city, den wisma, den fareast. To and fro. I showed them wad i shopping. Apparently jun's legs cant seem to follow US (nudeges yousheng). Finally bit went into SooKee jewellery to get a gift of 3 digit. Haha! Diamond one somemore leh. After tt den i shopped for my stuff loh. Went to bugis also. But din buy any, cuz nth seem to really catch my eye. And i still haf about a month , so ya.. Maybe Tingyi can help a little wif that.
Today while walking i first met eugena shunwei and sihong while walking along orchard road. Din see them until eugena waved in front of me. Den after tt i think i saw sini wif her bf, but it was back view while entering ngee ann city for the umpteen time. Lastly walking from the mrt station to ngee ann city once again, i saw my class girls. Din really see hu but i saw joey (who called out my name), fathiah and ramya, and the back of kiran. I noticed fathiah first before the whole lot of them. Met quite a few ppl today huh. Oh, lastly. On my way to somerset mrt, i saw yenni alighting the train at douby ghaut (or how u spell it?).
Tmr sch's starting again. And the new term starts. Time flies huh. Haha....

Here's the gift from ty:

It's a white tile. Front and back.
There's sth weird today. I saw 2 moths in my house. Haha...

It's 0220 now. But i changed it to 2359. Ya, same reason.

Went out early in the morning for soccer. Not at Bedok this time, but at basketball court. I was damn pissed off. Cuz some ppl whom i made the effort to morning call once i woke up was late. And the reason of late? Oversleeping. I called them at 0730, and when i reached wif wan at 0815, i called them to ask where they were and they answered wif the sleepy tone. Pissed off big time. And when i'm late for that period of 30min, i would be very very apologetic and guilty. Although that happened only once, when i made everyone wait for me for about an hour or so. Not cuz i woke up late or overslept, but cuz i had a valid reason of rushing through my PW file on due day. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've sort of said this before, but i'm going to say this again. Girl friends, as in friends between girls, are very very close relative to guy friends, as in friends between guys. Is it in the genes? Hmmm... In any case, i really envy girls cuz of this. And also the "bei zui de gan jue" =D. No, i'm not referring to ppl closing me down when i have the ball in soccer. I read this somewhere "having one gf beats having a thousand bfs". Pretty true eh.. THAT was by a girl btw. I'm thinking, having one bf beats having a thousand gfs. Not in general i say. There are some and few guys who'll fit in the statement only.

The guys who'll fit in there in my opinion will not be mentioned. Lest hearts are hurt. But JY and TY both are the gfs in sec and jc respectively. 2 of them not the really girly ones, but good girl friends who can really talk, Yes they are. Oh, this entire post is on friendship solely and bfs gfs are not BGR-related.

I'll scan sth which i gt from TY last Xmas, the first only personal (as in not gift xchange) gift i gt for Xmas tmr. Cuz i'm at my other hse now and there's no scanner. Anyway, the gift is full of meanings and though simple, the impact is rather big. Of course i prepared sth in return also, but this wasnt planned exchanges like previous years.

This yr, for my closer friends in mjc i will prepare some stuff for them, wif a card definitely. Leyi Jos Weilin haf all been recipients of my brain juice. And for the guys, i have been organizine birthday outings. So far only wan and raj, cuz no one else birthdays haf past.

Haha! I sound like I'm desperate for gifts.Yes,i am! This is not thick skin or BHB, but (i cant think of a word at the moment). Cuz after this yr, it's NS and i dunno how often i'll meet them all. Btw, i spent over $200 on gifts for my sec sch friends on their 16th cuz i thought we wun meet often after tt. Anyway, ya, i'm desperate for gifts. Not those juz off the shelf, but one wif a deep meaning and one which will cast a footprint in my memory. =). I'm really desperate for that.

Ok, it's now 0310. It's time to sleep. I'll scan in the gift from TY later in the day at about 2300 =D. Hope she doesnt mind. Pls. Nitez...

Hmm.. end of exams today. No more studying...... for one wk the most i guess. Although i no need to worry about the exams for the time being, i muz worry about my hypo tut which i have yet to do. Grrr... straight after exams den muz worry about tutorials.

Anyway, today went out after the exams. First went to watch War of the Worlds wif br pr kenneth and sanjay at cine (again?!). The show.... fresh story plot. Rather unpredictable bah.. Not bad. But rather anti climatic i would say.

After that sanjay left and the 4 of us went for Sakae buffet. I was amazed and surprised at the computer ordering system put up. This shows how long i havent been to Sakae. But the down thing is, u cant take the red plates for buffet. Meaning the eel and salmon and sashimi stuff are out of bounds!! Wad kind of Jap meal is that den? But wad to do.. fixed price for buffet...

After that, shopped around. Shopped quite a bit, but not as much as my Xmas one wif Yanzhu last yr. =D. We literally bao kao liao and shopped for the household stuff too. Today's was prom stuff Primarily. But in the end only i bought stuff. Not prom though. Haha.. Bought a new nike shorts for soccer cuz apparently i haf 2 of the same and haf been wearing the same design. And on certain occasion, we have have an entire team of 5 wearing the same shorts o.O And i also bought this Boss Aqua spray. Screw the soul vin.

I feel so distant. Got to do sth.. thinking thinking thinking..........