Mixed thoughts now..

Attended my very first wedding on Friday, the first wedding since I could think =). Raymond and Xena's wedding! It was super touching! Especially the videos which they made for the guests. And calling us, their decade friends. I've known them for 10 years since Sec1! We literally grew up together. They've been together for 8 years now and I'm really happy for them to finally get married and move on to another life. Things still seem pretty normal to me now. It's probably cuz they've been tgt for 8 years now and them being together married din make much of a difference. Hmm.. There SHOULD be some difference. I cant wait to experience and feel the difference.

I initiated a video to be done for them. In my opinion, the video was quite touching. It could be better definitely, but I've exhausted all my resources. I compiled photos from our younger days as well as some video clips of the closer ones with them. The song I used as background was Power Of Your Love. A song which I have never played back after sec school. It brought back memories to me.. and well.. I heard from Ray that xena cried. =) Super happy!!

Next up.. Done with Campus Reunion Concert. I guess the thing I can take back most out of the experience is meeting new ppl. Met Evan.. another music enthusiast. I would say that I never regreted joining M5. Although ppl bitched and complained about it, I feel that I didn't lose but gained lots.

I've not written songs in a long time. More than a year.. Why is that so?? I have no feel to write songs. One dilemma. I started off writing songs which are sad to portray my thoughts in the melody. However now, I am aiming to write non-mainstream songs. The thing is non-mainstream songs do not touch me. If the genre doesnt touch me, how can I write songs of that genre when my stimulus for writing is being touched? Dilemma!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aErEGdYN5xI&NR=1

XQRJ's number one. It's a nice sweet song tt i like a lot! And from the clip, it shows tt she really enjoyed the song and performed it the way she wrote it. Simplicity and it lets ppl get the most feel out of it. Really really nice and catchy song! Wonderful!!

I'm watching xqrj's videos online, and i think.. cuz the finals it's juz 12 original songs, more music is shown. And definitely, the style of xqrj is more laid back and relaxed. I'd like to experience it myself.. Nxt yr! =)

I'm just back from Impresario Grand Finals at NTU, and I've gotten 2nd runner up in the Song Composing category!! =) But the feeling I have not is not tt of coming in 3rd up against a strong line of competitors, but the whole experience over there!

Let's talk about other ppl's performance. I mean.. over there, I can really feel for the passion other contestants have about their music. It really touches me deeply when I see a wonderful performance made of hard work. At the point of performance, everthing juz shows and I was super super touched over there. The guy who gt champion for vocal solo was just sooo solid. It's not just his voice, but the way he handles the song with so much feel. Live music is really really different. Comparing these to Voices, there is definitely still a long way to go.

Now to the dance, the champion group was really really fantastic and once again, watching it touches me. The synchronising, timing, everything was just fantastic.

To composing segment. Hui Se Tian touched me. The moment Cecilia opened her mouth to sing, I could feel her emotions pouring out and I had goosepimples then, a performance worthy of 2nd place. I din think Only Way deserved to be first though.. den again, song composing is very subjective.

On my song, I felt for the song even though I was playing very little throughout the song! Vencent really did a wonderful job. Vencent, and when WeiQuan came in with the harmo, I was soooooo touched then. I couldn't help but get that wonderful feeling. A wonderful performance, to my standards, a wonderful live performance. Many people tell me that they felt it during the song and I'm super happy!

Marcus said that the crowd was very quiet during our performance because of the feelings they get, and they cheered loudly when it ended. The feeling was really indescribable! Wonderful wonderful feeling!!! SY too! Sang to the song even as it ended.

I cant wait for the DVD to be out. I really want to watch it! I guess I'm really satisfied and happy for my self as I have put in quite a bit of work and sacrifice for this. This feeling is... wooo-ohhh! Ahhhh!! Seriously, I'm super proud of myself to have moved and improved and learnt so much over such a short time.