My birthday was on Saturday. I think.. this year was the quietiest birthday ever! I am quite sad in a way. I always like gatherings.. no the big ones, but many many small ones so that I am every busy. For so many years, I sort of planned my own birthday celebrations, but stopped doing so this year totally. I was hoping for something to happen though.. but.. yea. A lil sad. Which spoilt the mood of everything else a lil.
Celebrations started on Friday.. Almido. Yup, I expected them to do sth, so it wasn't really much of a surprise. I know that if they did not do anything, I'll feel sadded, but cuz everything wasn't really on a high for me, thus wad they did did not like make me high, but made me less low. It wasn't them, but juz how things went around me.
Anyway, each of one them cooked something personally for me. Well, I'm quite a practical person, so the food had lots of effort put in.. that's all. =) I really appreciate the cooking though. Arghz!!! I cant even give a proper AAR to this cuz I'm not really in a happy mood now! The card holder, photos, roundabout car trips, clarke quay, red tee, cards.. all of it had lots of effort put in. All the efforts are really nice =) But.. it's not them, but there's sth tt's holding onto me...
The next day.. it was quite sad for me in a way. I slept till 2pm before running all over the place to finalize my music stuff. I gt 2 new keys, studio amps, mixer and a guitar for myself. Dinner with family a Pu Tien, and had the buffet. Still, even after getting these stuff, I dun feel like super high.
Sun.. whole day doing nth except badminton for a while and dinner at Geylang.
There's something that has been bugging me since July! I told myself that had this thing continued all the way to my birthday, my decision is confirmed. But.. like 1 or 2 weeks before my bday, this thing like stopped, until the 3/12 and then it continued. Like seriously continued! There was nth on my bday and now I'm super confused with myself. What is going on?! If the thing did not stop at all, it would be much easier for me. Cuz it stopped, it gave me an excuse to think twice, and this thinking twice is bad... Should I, or should I not? Cuz if i should, i dunno wad's the real reason for me to do it. Yet, if it's no, I have no stimulus cuz it's really really tiring to not get responses and for this thing to literally disappear for nth! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Like come on.. 5 month and u meet only once. Wad is this.... And all the talks in between is about lending u money to help your friend. Now that it's settled, wad's the issue again?! Phone faulty huh..
Celebrations started on Friday.. Almido. Yup, I expected them to do sth, so it wasn't really much of a surprise. I know that if they did not do anything, I'll feel sadded, but cuz everything wasn't really on a high for me, thus wad they did did not like make me high, but made me less low. It wasn't them, but juz how things went around me.
Anyway, each of one them cooked something personally for me. Well, I'm quite a practical person, so the food had lots of effort put in.. that's all. =) I really appreciate the cooking though. Arghz!!! I cant even give a proper AAR to this cuz I'm not really in a happy mood now! The card holder, photos, roundabout car trips, clarke quay, red tee, cards.. all of it had lots of effort put in. All the efforts are really nice =) But.. it's not them, but there's sth tt's holding onto me...
The next day.. it was quite sad for me in a way. I slept till 2pm before running all over the place to finalize my music stuff. I gt 2 new keys, studio amps, mixer and a guitar for myself. Dinner with family a Pu Tien, and had the buffet. Still, even after getting these stuff, I dun feel like super high.
Sun.. whole day doing nth except badminton for a while and dinner at Geylang.
There's something that has been bugging me since July! I told myself that had this thing continued all the way to my birthday, my decision is confirmed. But.. like 1 or 2 weeks before my bday, this thing like stopped, until the 3/12 and then it continued. Like seriously continued! There was nth on my bday and now I'm super confused with myself. What is going on?! If the thing did not stop at all, it would be much easier for me. Cuz it stopped, it gave me an excuse to think twice, and this thinking twice is bad... Should I, or should I not? Cuz if i should, i dunno wad's the real reason for me to do it. Yet, if it's no, I have no stimulus cuz it's really really tiring to not get responses and for this thing to literally disappear for nth! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Like come on.. 5 month and u meet only once. Wad is this.... And all the talks in between is about lending u money to help your friend. Now that it's settled, wad's the issue again?! Phone faulty huh..
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