I've been really busy these few days.
I dunno wad's wrong with us. Or rather, I dunno wad's wrong with her. After the 6 months thingy, nothing seems right. There was only one instance when it felt last before.. Just once. I dun think it has anything to do with me actually. TY suggested that we talk it over, and I talked it over. But still.. my intuition tells me that there are a lot a lot of things that I do not know. I'm reaching breaking pt in this cuz there are so many doubts. Too many too many that makes wanting to trust difficult!
We are not talking about law.. There isn't a need to have evidence to prove. But I base on my feel. I recall the wonderful feeling we had when we talked last time. But now, it only happened once! And when I asked to clear those doubt, it seems that it was only partially told to me. Does not looking in the eyes help anything? There are things that is all about feel.
I dun want this to crack or anything cuz despite my horrible school work, and busy music committments, I really cherish us. I do feel that I'm doing super a lot a lot a lot a lot. Who would online shop like at least once a week, get an itouch when you asked for it, bring and pay for the hair styling etc? I am not rich.. I'm juz willing to spend... more on you, less on myself..
We used to tell each other quite a lot of stuff, happy, sad, angry, embarrasing.. whatever.. But now why the change? Is it juz cuz the honeymoon's over? I dun think so.. some communication stuff should not change cuz communication is the basis of everything! The emotional and spiritual supports...
Just during CNY.. when I went over to visit Uncle and Aunty, and spend some time tgt. I saw things that made my legs weak, and made me confused. Messages in your hp were from an unknown no, and were all like "HAM", "Last night after u msg me, i cant sleep", "Dun think so much.. Just go to sleep. Good Night. Love you", "Would u love me as much as before even though~~~~~" All these msgs are like OMG.
Ok, so I asked about it. You said it was ur brother's cuz you are temporarily using his no as ur line died. You have been using it for about 3 days or so, which is ok. I am unsure if the numbers which sent all the msgs are from the same number, or even if the messages are dated earlier than when you took over the phone. So perhaps.. it's ur brother's msgs. You even told me that nowadays, your bro refused to let you see his messages like before...
Ok, I din really buy it, but chose to believe. It was hard to force myself to believe. But I have to anyway. HAM is wad your sec sch friends call you... Thus.. yea..
That was on Tues. Wed, you din reply my smses or pick up my calls, Thurs, you only replied that I'm irritating. I really dunno for what reason would any gf not pick up the calls or reply to smses. Reasons u gave were "exam stress", "phone msg limit reaching", "nv hear the phone" etc.. But how often can these happen? Can we even talk on your house phone? Not that we're talking about how to elope, or to burn the tree beside your house! It's juz normal talking! But why can't?
I happen to take down the number who sent the "do u love me" sms, and made a call. It doesnt help that the number was an easy to rmb no.. No response. The return call was a guy... Soo.. I need answers now! I dun think you'll read this though. But to put it bluntly, am I juz an ATM after the 6 months thingy? I was very very sure things were going alright before that.
We could even wake up at 630am on a Sunday morning to go to the beach to pick shells. But now.. it's because of you, that's why I feel that my efforts are not appreciated. And my birthday.. nth.. totally nth! Reason: You were afraid that I was angry with you, and you saw the birthday celebrations with my friends on fb, and dun want to make me sad.
I juz want to know.. What actually happened throughout the 6 months? What happened to all the money? What happened?!?! I wun be angry with you if you tell me the truth! Now you're only confusing me.... 97513898.. Should I call and talk to this person? Should I?
I dunno wad's wrong with us. Or rather, I dunno wad's wrong with her. After the 6 months thingy, nothing seems right. There was only one instance when it felt last before.. Just once. I dun think it has anything to do with me actually. TY suggested that we talk it over, and I talked it over. But still.. my intuition tells me that there are a lot a lot of things that I do not know. I'm reaching breaking pt in this cuz there are so many doubts. Too many too many that makes wanting to trust difficult!
We are not talking about law.. There isn't a need to have evidence to prove. But I base on my feel. I recall the wonderful feeling we had when we talked last time. But now, it only happened once! And when I asked to clear those doubt, it seems that it was only partially told to me. Does not looking in the eyes help anything? There are things that is all about feel.
I dun want this to crack or anything cuz despite my horrible school work, and busy music committments, I really cherish us. I do feel that I'm doing super a lot a lot a lot a lot. Who would online shop like at least once a week, get an itouch when you asked for it, bring and pay for the hair styling etc? I am not rich.. I'm juz willing to spend... more on you, less on myself..
We used to tell each other quite a lot of stuff, happy, sad, angry, embarrasing.. whatever.. But now why the change? Is it juz cuz the honeymoon's over? I dun think so.. some communication stuff should not change cuz communication is the basis of everything! The emotional and spiritual supports...
Just during CNY.. when I went over to visit Uncle and Aunty, and spend some time tgt. I saw things that made my legs weak, and made me confused. Messages in your hp were from an unknown no, and were all like "HAM", "Last night after u msg me, i cant sleep", "Dun think so much.. Just go to sleep. Good Night. Love you", "Would u love me as much as before even though~~~~~" All these msgs are like OMG.
Ok, so I asked about it. You said it was ur brother's cuz you are temporarily using his no as ur line died. You have been using it for about 3 days or so, which is ok. I am unsure if the numbers which sent all the msgs are from the same number, or even if the messages are dated earlier than when you took over the phone. So perhaps.. it's ur brother's msgs. You even told me that nowadays, your bro refused to let you see his messages like before...
Ok, I din really buy it, but chose to believe. It was hard to force myself to believe. But I have to anyway. HAM is wad your sec sch friends call you... Thus.. yea..
That was on Tues. Wed, you din reply my smses or pick up my calls, Thurs, you only replied that I'm irritating. I really dunno for what reason would any gf not pick up the calls or reply to smses. Reasons u gave were "exam stress", "phone msg limit reaching", "nv hear the phone" etc.. But how often can these happen? Can we even talk on your house phone? Not that we're talking about how to elope, or to burn the tree beside your house! It's juz normal talking! But why can't?
I happen to take down the number who sent the "do u love me" sms, and made a call. It doesnt help that the number was an easy to rmb no.. No response. The return call was a guy... Soo.. I need answers now! I dun think you'll read this though. But to put it bluntly, am I juz an ATM after the 6 months thingy? I was very very sure things were going alright before that.
We could even wake up at 630am on a Sunday morning to go to the beach to pick shells. But now.. it's because of you, that's why I feel that my efforts are not appreciated. And my birthday.. nth.. totally nth! Reason: You were afraid that I was angry with you, and you saw the birthday celebrations with my friends on fb, and dun want to make me sad.
I juz want to know.. What actually happened throughout the 6 months? What happened to all the money? What happened?!?! I wun be angry with you if you tell me the truth! Now you're only confusing me.... 97513898.. Should I call and talk to this person? Should I?