He has flown off to SEP last night. Yj told me she cried a lot. It's hurting to me simply because she really misses him and love him. Is it really a two way thing for them now, and one way for me? I understand everything she's doing because I would do the same to her when she's gone. I understand it perfectly.. so well such that it hurts.
Although we spoke on the phone at night, yj is hiding something. Perhaps using everything else to cover her feelings. She's a superb nice girl.. doing everything to help him. She said she's going to/did something super shocking to me.. but left it hanging there. What is it?? It's really 胡思乱想.....
I dunno.. my options have to open up a lot a lot. I can't rant to anyone because I know what I should do and what the replies would be. It's so obvious I have to back out.. but it's hard. Very very hard... I gave everything to her birthday, and there's the part 2. I guess, let's see how things go from now until she flies.
I was looking through our sms-es before I slept and saw that in just ONE month from 20/12 to 20/1. A lot a lot happened between us.. Everything was super fine until I sent the email. Was it coincidence that it was the cruise trip? Perhaps, perhaps not..
I dunno how she pacified him to go on the trip, but she did it anyway. And they seemed to get closer from then on. Even in HK.. she blurting out buying thing "for my boyfriend" in front of me not knowing it. Her heart has all gone to him. I'm just someone who treats her super good. Even though he hurt her time and time again, she still loves him a lot. Haizzz... I really miss November.. I really do!
Ok, more pictures from the Thailand trip is up. She did a shirt for me.. and the exact same one for him.. Mine's "Nobody plays it better than Joel", for him "Nobody loves me more than my girlfriend". This is like so deja-vu! Haizzzz.. nth to say....
When you see all those stuff. You have some feelings, but nth much.. and it subsides after a few minutes. What does it mean? Does it mean that you have given up? No, I havent.. I still love her a lot. Then does it mean you are emo, but feel happy for her cuz you see her happy? Perhaps.. But come one Joel, this is not you. So not you... Are you that noble? I'm emo cuz she's not with me, and she's feeling happy with him. But because she's feeling happy with him, my emo-ness gets subdued? Perhaps perhaps... It's until July. A good half year from now and a lot of things can happen in half year. I dunno.. It's been a very very good Oct/Nov 10 for me. =) As long as she's happy... haha...
Although we spoke on the phone at night, yj is hiding something. Perhaps using everything else to cover her feelings. She's a superb nice girl.. doing everything to help him. She said she's going to/did something super shocking to me.. but left it hanging there. What is it?? It's really 胡思乱想.....
I dunno.. my options have to open up a lot a lot. I can't rant to anyone because I know what I should do and what the replies would be. It's so obvious I have to back out.. but it's hard. Very very hard... I gave everything to her birthday, and there's the part 2. I guess, let's see how things go from now until she flies.
I was looking through our sms-es before I slept and saw that in just ONE month from 20/12 to 20/1. A lot a lot happened between us.. Everything was super fine until I sent the email. Was it coincidence that it was the cruise trip? Perhaps, perhaps not..
I dunno how she pacified him to go on the trip, but she did it anyway. And they seemed to get closer from then on. Even in HK.. she blurting out buying thing "for my boyfriend" in front of me not knowing it. Her heart has all gone to him. I'm just someone who treats her super good. Even though he hurt her time and time again, she still loves him a lot. Haizzz... I really miss November.. I really do!
Ok, more pictures from the Thailand trip is up. She did a shirt for me.. and the exact same one for him.. Mine's "Nobody plays it better than Joel", for him "Nobody loves me more than my girlfriend". This is like so deja-vu! Haizzzz.. nth to say....
When you see all those stuff. You have some feelings, but nth much.. and it subsides after a few minutes. What does it mean? Does it mean that you have given up? No, I havent.. I still love her a lot. Then does it mean you are emo, but feel happy for her cuz you see her happy? Perhaps.. But come one Joel, this is not you. So not you... Are you that noble? I'm emo cuz she's not with me, and she's feeling happy with him. But because she's feeling happy with him, my emo-ness gets subdued? Perhaps perhaps... It's until July. A good half year from now and a lot of things can happen in half year. I dunno.. It's been a very very good Oct/Nov 10 for me. =) As long as she's happy... haha...
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