Lying to myself too much! Or rather not facing up to things.. and living in self delusions. In another way, I'm protecting myself well. This whole thing will definitely strengthen me mentally though.
I get the occassional sadness, loneliness, difference now and stuff, but coping well. Or at least I think I'm coping well. Say I'm trying to find someone else to take all these stuff away from me.. Is it possible? Is it fair to that someone, if that someone ever appears? Haha... Life is not fair. Once you step in, it's hard for you to step out.
I'm trying to meet more people(yes, local and not PRCs from my workplace), and to brighten up my life a lil. And I'm finally trying out Yoga.. although it is just one session first, but everything has to have a start.
I have to face it that as of now, there is absolutely no way of returning to the past. Everything is moving forward and I have to move FASTER than everyone. Once I'm lagging, I'm at a disadvantage. Come on Joel, you are much much stronger than this!
You asked me if THAT was worth it. Yes it is. Because it forced you to make a decision, and you made it. And yes, I agree that sadly, I'm too smart for you. Haha.. in a bad way. Seeing through your "evil plans". As time goes by, everything becomes memories and memories.. maybe distant. How close as friends can be be compared to 2 person who have something for each other? I do not know. In anycase, it's just ONE week since you left. Though I have been getting this vibe since Tajimaya day. Perhaps my one second step on the acclerator and switching gears gave you another slap. Haha.. In any case, like I said as before you flew off, that finally, both of us broke free. Unlike that night at Chinese Garden, when I wanted to, but we still came back the next day, or rather the day after.
I think Almido can agree that THAT was arguably my happiest moment in the 2.5 years they knew me.. =) Well, at least there was a past.
I'm damn sure you would read this. Yes, super duper sure cuz I still understand you a lot. No worries, I'm really coping fine back here, and moving ahead with my life. I still have my events company and tuition centre and food establishement in mind! And no matter what's going to happen these months be it we drift like damn far or wad, the promise a year back still holds. Find Li Pei Fen at a GeTai during the 7th lunar month. It's a something to just look to.
Just ranting. Many many more rants, but I'll just keep them, and i will forget about them, hopefully. =)
I get the occassional sadness, loneliness, difference now and stuff, but coping well. Or at least I think I'm coping well. Say I'm trying to find someone else to take all these stuff away from me.. Is it possible? Is it fair to that someone, if that someone ever appears? Haha... Life is not fair. Once you step in, it's hard for you to step out.
I'm trying to meet more people(yes, local and not PRCs from my workplace), and to brighten up my life a lil. And I'm finally trying out Yoga.. although it is just one session first, but everything has to have a start.
I have to face it that as of now, there is absolutely no way of returning to the past. Everything is moving forward and I have to move FASTER than everyone. Once I'm lagging, I'm at a disadvantage. Come on Joel, you are much much stronger than this!
You asked me if THAT was worth it. Yes it is. Because it forced you to make a decision, and you made it. And yes, I agree that sadly, I'm too smart for you. Haha.. in a bad way. Seeing through your "evil plans". As time goes by, everything becomes memories and memories.. maybe distant. How close as friends can be be compared to 2 person who have something for each other? I do not know. In anycase, it's just ONE week since you left. Though I have been getting this vibe since Tajimaya day. Perhaps my one second step on the acclerator and switching gears gave you another slap. Haha.. In any case, like I said as before you flew off, that finally, both of us broke free. Unlike that night at Chinese Garden, when I wanted to, but we still came back the next day, or rather the day after.
I think Almido can agree that THAT was arguably my happiest moment in the 2.5 years they knew me.. =) Well, at least there was a past.
I'm damn sure you would read this. Yes, super duper sure cuz I still understand you a lot. No worries, I'm really coping fine back here, and moving ahead with my life. I still have my events company and tuition centre and food establishement in mind! And no matter what's going to happen these months be it we drift like damn far or wad, the promise a year back still holds. Find Li Pei Fen at a GeTai during the 7th lunar month. It's a something to just look to.
Just ranting. Many many more rants, but I'll just keep them, and i will forget about them, hopefully. =)
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