Thinking through, and reading through my blog, I took about 1 month for P. It's been like 6 months or so already for Y. I know now that it'll take something for us to be like before. It'll take two hands to clap, and somehow, it'll have to start all over again. Like seriously all over again. I long for the day that I'll be able to read through my unpublished blog entries and think, "Ahh.. it was a great experience. I'll remember this wonderful period in my life. Ok, next up would be ~~~" And not just feeling sad over everything etc.

Oh, and as I was reading through those entries, I recalled something Angela told me. A date, and a celebration, are two different things. Say a couple meets up for a bday celebration. It has to be something special! And not just to go out, hang around, have a "better than usual" meal, go home. There has to be something more! Even going to USS is something special, and surprises etc!

So many of my classmates are now attached! Like seriously.. 7 in 10 are attached! I was quite surprised cuz no other group of friends are like that. Hmm...

My classmates are like going out so often! Just on Thursday, 21 of us went to Golden Mile Food Centre after class, Friday, 12 of us went to eat Kway Chap near school, Saturday 19 people for harry potter <- which I overslept for! =(. The thing is, this is the Culinary side and Pastry side together. Once we split at the end of this coming week, I'm not sure if we would meet up too often! Hope we would!! It's now a class of 38! A number last seen in secondary school! Re-living school life all over again! =)

It's been 3 weeks at school! And to be working and studying at the same time is horrendous! I need sleep! I've been taking one MC per week for the past 3 weeks, and it's helping a bit. But this is definitely not a long term solution. I am really prepared to quit this night job, and just lead a normal student life. I would have more concentration this way. Pls let there be a permanent replacement soon!!

Next week's my first's exam.. it's mainly a practical one whereby I have to do service and wine service to guests. Hope it'll be fine!

At school, the aroma from the bakery is super tantalizing daily! I get to smell the wonderful freshly baked pastry everyday and it's boomz! The breads and pastry baked by the students are rather nice to eat, but other than that, the cakes and cooked food in general are very average. No aroma from the cooked food there AT ALL! My amateur cooking at home producing aroma at least!

I'm getting closer to more people there and making lots of friends and going on outings! There's another NUS student with me, 3 A-levels, a couple of polys, ITEs, N-levels etc.. and you can actually identify the different education qualifications from the way they speak, and how fast they absorb the theory stuff. I'm not saying being able to enter NUS is all so awesome or anything, but just a rather generic thing I observed.

Kitchen in 2 weeks~~~~

She's coming back tmr.. Haha.. like finally. I dunno if I've moved on, but I do feel spasms of intense feelings at times. But I was thinking through the recent ones, and wondering if it is due to this person in particular, or just the inner emotion created by thoughts of this person. I rmb the day a few months back, when i was in the car, raining, lowest point, and the radio played Ah Du's 下雪.. and a week back, we were talking about spending Xmas tgt, going around Orchard to do things I nv ever did, that is to camwhore with the Xmas deco. It was a horrid horrid piercing pain when the song came on...

I was blog surfing again, and I realized blog entries on break-ups touch me from within. It's about how much the person learnt while being in the relationship, the mutual understandings all the way to the mutual agreement of breakup.

Quote:

I want to thank you for teaching me to love someone again and how far I can go to really love someone.

Appreciation is another thing I've learn so here goes:
- Thank you for sending me home though you are tired at times.
- Thank you for waiting for me while sleeping in the car.
- Thank you for comprising on things I insist
- Thank you for all of the surprises :)
- Thank you for helping out when I needed you.
- Thank you for tolerating my nonsense talk and bad English
- Thank you for watching the movies that I chose though I noe you wanted others.
- Thank you for lending me your shoulder and hands.

All those entries that I've read ever since the days leading up to the creation of 其实我爱你 were from ladies. Guys dun really put these kinda stuff down I guess.

School's started, and I completed day 2 today. I rented a car for a month to see if having a car would help me juggle both sides, and so far so good. But it's only day 2. I was soooo sleepy in class this afternoon, but so was everyone with more sleep than me, and that means I'm normal =D.

The place seems rather strict with a standard grooming to follow. Similar to the army, but I'm ok with it. I met some friends and most of them are there to stand out and be outstanding. I'm just there as a fast track into the industry to learn as much as I can before I start my own eatery 2 years time. I guess I'll just do everything at a comfortable pace and spend more time on money making, Yes, mercenary I know I am.

As for the night job.. I thought of quitting, but once again, a 天地人和 situation in the sense that
1) I'm knowing more people here, both staff and customers and getting to talk to them, dine out tgt. I just suppered with 2 staff, singer papa and 3 singers on Saturday night.
2) The boss is renovating the whole place and everything related to me, he consults me literally. Changing everything according to what I tell him, and providing me with a super conducive environment.
3) I'm getting right into my comfort zone and able to muti-task like a somebodehh here.

On the other hand,
1) School is fine, ending at 5. I sleep from 6 to 930 before driving to work. And from 430am to 630am. Taking many small winks. Killing myself softly. But as I'm typing this, I'm thinking through... the study is just a good exposure and learning platform, the night job is something practical. Night job priority? Haha!
2) School sometimes MAY end late at 11plus or so. How do I work on these days?! This is the main problem. I'll be participating in a banquet dinner for the French embassy on France National Day 14/7. Basically cheap labour/server. And with the Ritz Carlton for F1. This is something new, and a good exposure in every aspect. When attachment comes in from Term 2 to 5, it'll be more unpredictable timings

So how? Haizzz.. Sch's curriculum is fixed and I dun really have a choice in my timings etc. Ok, I'll talk to the so called "form teacher" asap about this and hope we can come to a compromise.

And tianju, shuangying and huiting's convocation is this Fri! I am so damn excited about it! 3 years we were running around Sentosa for E5 and now, graduation!