好久没自己唱自己写的“其实我爱你”了。在几天前，收到朋友的要求，就唱了一遍。非常惊讶。因为虽然只是通过电话，也没有什么刚请伴奏，就唱得非常有感觉。那在同一个晚上，通过电话，也加上钢琴的伴奏，自己自弹自唱了一遍。以为没什么大不了，致使多唱一遍自己写的歌曲。但唱得当儿，真身发热，好多感觉，但在脑海里一个画面也没有。是因为什么呢？
Could it be that I've been blocking things away so successfully from myself, but yet the subconsious tells the truth? I dunno if I still miss her. I dunno if I'll still think of her, and I do not know if she comes "clapping" to me one day, what would I do. I know I have to move on, and I'm moving on. To the "you" and the Almidos reading, I'm attached. But was it an abrupt move? Is this move a genuine one? I do not have the answer to these myself. But I do know what are the right things to do.
Throughout this period I met this person, and started to just talk. IMHO, I did not do anything except to just talk talk and talk. Simply communication. I did not compose a song, nor cook or make anything, absolutely nth, but somehow, she says I did a lot. Then again, my threshold for "doing a lot" is really much higher than most.
It's a situation of girl has more feelings for the guy than guy has for girl. But cuz of the previous para, the girl is doing quite a bit for the guy. Making barley.. ginseng.. cooling stuff cuz the guy is sick and works late, and sleeps very little. The girl is now giving morning calls at 630am when she only has to wake up at 8 or 9am! The girl is talking all about it to friends and families. It's like come on, such a nice person doing this, I must know what to do. I'm going what I said most people are doing, that is "to get to know each other whilst in a relationship", and climbing the so-called relationship ladder, rather than the friendship ladder. It helps that I'm super busy now, and dun even have time to sleep. A good chance to see how this goes, and to nurture the flame. Hopefully, when I quit my job (which I hope will happen asap!), and when I have more time at hand, I would be ready to fully commit my whole life in this. Ok, half, the other half goes to my restaurant building.
I've grown up a bit now. I can feel it. Lots of ideas and thoughts have changed.. Aging perhaps. And yes, I'm all ready to say that, I miss life when I was younger.. JC, Army, Uni.. I'm missing the experiences and lifestyle. I'm now worrying about making enough money for a boomz marriage in future, and for family(parents and kids next time).. Enjoying life, everything! Haizzz.... I am really vv happy to be in Almido. Very very very lucky.......
Could it be that I've been blocking things away so successfully from myself, but yet the subconsious tells the truth? I dunno if I still miss her. I dunno if I'll still think of her, and I do not know if she comes "clapping" to me one day, what would I do. I know I have to move on, and I'm moving on. To the "you" and the Almidos reading, I'm attached. But was it an abrupt move? Is this move a genuine one? I do not have the answer to these myself. But I do know what are the right things to do.
Throughout this period I met this person, and started to just talk. IMHO, I did not do anything except to just talk talk and talk. Simply communication. I did not compose a song, nor cook or make anything, absolutely nth, but somehow, she says I did a lot. Then again, my threshold for "doing a lot" is really much higher than most.
It's a situation of girl has more feelings for the guy than guy has for girl. But cuz of the previous para, the girl is doing quite a bit for the guy. Making barley.. ginseng.. cooling stuff cuz the guy is sick and works late, and sleeps very little. The girl is now giving morning calls at 630am when she only has to wake up at 8 or 9am! The girl is talking all about it to friends and families. It's like come on, such a nice person doing this, I must know what to do. I'm going what I said most people are doing, that is "to get to know each other whilst in a relationship", and climbing the so-called relationship ladder, rather than the friendship ladder. It helps that I'm super busy now, and dun even have time to sleep. A good chance to see how this goes, and to nurture the flame. Hopefully, when I quit my job (which I hope will happen asap!), and when I have more time at hand, I would be ready to fully commit my whole life in this. Ok, half, the other half goes to my restaurant building.
I've grown up a bit now. I can feel it. Lots of ideas and thoughts have changed.. Aging perhaps. And yes, I'm all ready to say that, I miss life when I was younger.. JC, Army, Uni.. I'm missing the experiences and lifestyle. I'm now worrying about making enough money for a boomz marriage in future, and for family(parents and kids next time).. Enjoying life, everything! Haizzz.... I am really vv happy to be in Almido. Very very very lucky.......
2 comments:
you have grown...
whatever you felt for the gal, hold on to it. sometimes love is not all about loving, but tolerating and crossing hurdles together. Jia you
thank you! =)
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