Having pride in my decision and achievements or simply being arrogant. It's a very very fine line. 

Cooking. Inspiration started of when I was a small boy watching my grandmum cook. Over the years, I got her recipe and replicated it at home. Now, as a chef trainee, my culinary skills and recipe collection surpasses hers. I even twitched some of her own recipes and refined them. Now, there are many times I comment silently on her cooking faults to myself. But I still gobble down everything every Sunday that I'm having dinner there.. afterall, it's the similar tastes that I grew up with. =)

Music. Started keys with Jane who was from hark music. At the point when she left the school, I have so much more musically in me than her. If we were jamming tgt, I could even point out flaws. Disrespect? No. She's a really nice lady. A good teacher. A good teacher might not be a good performer. Very true. 

I'm confused. I have so much on my mind. I need a break. Looking forward to the week long break I'll be taking.

News about a guy killed by a lorry, and his gf finishing up his unfinished business and the wake.. and talks about the past..

News about a girl falling to her death from an apartment. The bf wiped off her blood and tidied her up. Stood by her for as long as he could and before he was persuaded away by the police, gave her a final kiss. No final good byes for them..

News of friends getting engaged one by one.. some with kids even..

I'm sad. I love her.

A test of my mental strength. In all aspect. I know I would walk through everything safe and sound. May have some scratches here and there, but in general, safe. Would I change after going through everything on my own? I do not know. One thing's for sure, if I managed to get through everything successfully on my own, I'll be more kuailan than i already am, and super proud of myself. Of course, the "street-smart-humility" will still be there.

These include love, relationship, school, job, my own business.

Yes i am kuailan, and street-smart (or hypocrite some may put it), but it has served me well over the years. Logical reasons back me up. Pull and release of the string. I am feeling more kuailan now already. Fire's burning. It has stopped for the past 2 years or so. Come back. Soon.

Nom.